What Life Taught Me

We should accept people the way they are, their present, and what they are aspire for their future. That includes accepting and forgiving their past and believe that there were always reasons in every mistakes and bad behavior at their past. People need chance to prove that they are willing to move forward and being a better person. All we have to do is sacrifice a little. Just a little, which is to have the ability to appreciate their big effort and accept them with open hands and big heart.

Foto Del Dia

Was so bored today so i took a pic and edited it with Picnik.

It is now Coral's wallpaper :D

Look who's gaining weight!

Sitting in living room with Mom. Daddy and Venny are watching a football match yelling and commenting like an expert. Why am i not watching? It's just Indonesia vs Malaysia, i'm not a big fan of both football teams, so.. :D (haha, guess if i mean it?)

Well, thanks God for my dad's addiction to facebook that i could post this from my house (again) now. Oh, and this is my first post using Coral! Coral is my new red notebook from Dell. She is so gorgeous and i love her already. This is my first computer that i have for my own. Before, it was always ours, a shared ownership between me and my sisters. Hehe.. But I'm grateful, if i've never learn how to share i wouldn't appreciate having something for my own. :)

(even Adis and fachrie are impressed :p)

Had a fun karaoke time with Mbak Ayu, Mbak Sri Rahayu and Mbak indah yesterday. Thank you girls, that "Waka-waka moment" was priceless :*.



I'm currently into :
1. Playing my old playlists.
2. Sondre Lerche.
3. Waiting.
4. Manggoes.
5. Sate.
6. Roller coaster of mood.
6. Dunhill Desire RED.
7. Oh and i eat ridiculous amount of sweets.

It's raining and i'm sleepy.
Good night.


PS: Happy Wedding for Kak Anggi and Happy 7th birthday, Caca!
PS2: All the best of luck to all of my students at their Mid Exam!! Be good, kids!

Now? Why?? How Come?

That was exact reaction from some people when i told them that i'm going to continue my study outta town. Yup, officially i've asked my office to let me go there. But i still haven't got any clear contract, explanation, or agreement with the institution. Some people might think that my idea is kinda odd, rush, or else, but i really don't understand why? I have reasons and i will explain why it should be done as soon as possible.

first. I'm in a comfort zone. And it's dangerous. As i've shared in my previous post about this, i feel good with my life now. But we must be careful if something works too well, means there's something bad about to come in. Or at least it would be some kind of lullaby that will makes us forget the world is bigger than what we have seen with our eyes now. I'm aware about this, so i have to do action, now!

second. I TEACH PEOPLE. I'm in a classroom 4 times a week trying to transfer a little knowledge i have to 20-40 students each classes. The more week passed by the more i realize that i know nothing. I am capable but i am also limited. Actually, I read books, i study like elementary student going to face final exam before i teach the next morning, i browse about things i don't know more than i've done before. But it's not enough. It won't be sufficient. I have to go back to classroom and let people with wider range of knowledge teach me directly. Period.

third. My daily routin at office consist of managing, handling, organizing postgraduate courses. Marketing, administration, financial, general affairs, academic stuff. In short, facilitate them to get a further education. Everyday i'm dealing with students, in weekend i meet senior lecturers giving knowledge to students and wonder: What makes me different from these students? Why didn't i in a classroom with them? Some of them has the same age range with me. And i shouldn't been here sitting in my square. "If today were the last day of my life, would i want to be the one who supervise final exam or the one who is doing the final exam?" Not both, but you get my poin, right? :P

fourth. This is a perfect momentum to change my life plan. I've cancelled my wedding. And it's not only about "no party on December 4th", it's deeper than that. Several plan needs to be reviewed. I need to remapped my choices and dreams in order to have a clear future design.

Well, i'm not going to listen to people who demotivates me. There will always that person/people whose happiness is depend on other's disappointment and failure. I'll stick with those who believe in my sincere intention to develop my self and without a doubt giving me motivation and moral support.

If it meant to be, it will be. We'll see in a month what would happened.

All together, finger crossed.

:)

I'll Love You For A Thousand More

Christina Perri has a new song!!!! Sadly, it's an official Breaking Dawn soundtrack. And you all know how i feel about Twilight Saga *straighface*. I don't want to start any kind of clash with FANGirls, so just enjoy this song, pals!! Its video clip has similar theme with her "Penguin" one, no?

Blessing in Sincerity

As i said, i've tried my best to let go my lost mobile phone. I consider it as no longer mine. I even had planned to buy a new one. Then last night, my sister got a text message from a number which said :

My sister screamed to get my attention. About seconds later, I called the sender number and found out that it's a woman. She only said "Hello" then she hang up. I tried to call her again and again but she didn't want to pick up anymore. I texted her, i tried to explain that it was my cell-phone in her hand. If she's the one who found it, i expected her to give it back to me. Finally, after a lot of phone calls (which she ignored) and several text messages, she picked up my call. She explained that her sister (who also a student in the college i work for) found it in Masjid Darmajaya and didn't know how to give it back to its owner. She also asked where i live etc. In short, she agreed to return my cellphone this morning.

(Lost Mobile Track, a feature in LG KE770 shine that could bring my mobile phone back!! LMT for the win!!)

I came to office a bit earlier, at 8am she showed up. She returned my LG safe and soundly. After 4 days separated i never wonder that it could get back to me. I'm grateful and could only say Alhamdulillah. What did i do that deserve this? A sloppy human being who is so careless with her possession. Thank you Allah. :')

Time To Do Some Changes

Yesterday, I arrived home at 7 pm and went to bed about an hour after. Almost everyday I had the same pattern, arrived home a bit late then sleeping like a baby. At 12.30am I found my consciousness, checked my blackberry, read several emails, notifications and messages. Replied to some and just let some unreplied. Still dealing with the fact that I've lost my cell-phone, though. :(

In the middle of replying an e-mail from my friend, something strike my mind eventually. I wasn't in a good mood all day and I was thinking too much (well, yes, I'm a melancholic). I think about what I'm doing in life right now. Everything seems so easy and going well for me. Have a job, make money by my own self, hang out with my friends once in a while, being close to family, friends, and my loved ones, being loved by many people, doesn't have any problems with anyone around me, etc. I'm not rich or in a top of my career yet but to be honest I'm happy and comfortable with what I'm doing now. Bottom line the word "comfortable".

But..

Oh wait, DAMN, Eci!! You shouldn't let your self comfortable, not now in a very young age! Not now when you still have all the choices in the world! I slapped my self and let my eyes wide opened. You gotta suffer once again!

So, I went out of my bedroom and saw my father sleeping in front of TV at our living room. I tiptoed to my parents' bedroom where my mom sleep tightly. I didn't want to wake her up so I just laid there beside her. I played with my blackberry for about 10 minutes until my Mom feel my existence in her side. She woke up and asked me why I've waken up too early. I just mumbled vaguely.

Then I asked her this question, "Ma, how if I quit my job?".

With her eyes barely open she answered, "um, why?".

I replied, "I want to go back to college. If I still couldn't found a way to go abroad, may you just let me continue my study here? You know, at Jakarta or Bandung or maybe Jogja or any place in Indonesia where there is a good FIKOM. If you could afford my tuition fee, then along with studying I will work my ass off to make money for my living expenses, books, etc. Maybe I can opted for a weekend class and working at weekdays there."

Mom touched my cheeks and said, "Well, just find any information of how much it cost then we'll talk about it again, ok?".

I smiled and told her, "I'll ask my friends ASAP, thanks Ma!" then I left to my bedroom.

Nah, that's it. I think I have to force my self to leave this comfort zone and being a student again. Leaving this town to stay in another place for the first time in my life and feel new experiences. Even if I know that it will be hard in the terms of adaptation, cost, etc. But if there's a will, there's a way.

Like my friend said: ya, saya kaleng. Yes, I can. :D

Last, enjoy these moving videos. Credit to Kak Tito for the Nutrilon video and Bang Citra who linked me to STA Travel Australia video from his facebook.

Cheers.

Happy friday!