This is a Baby Post!!

Temanku pernah protes, katanya kalau buat tulisan ga pake Bahasa Inggris "so not you". Hehe.. Tapi biar deh sekali-sekali boleh lah ya. Akhir-akhir ini perasaan sedang campur aduk. Stress, banyak pikiran, was-was, menyebabkan malas makan, malas kerja, malas belajar, malas merawat diri, malas olah raga, malas baca. Tapi disaat yang bersamaan merasa bahagia, nyaman, lebih sabar, dan belajar melihat kehidupan dari sisi yang berbeda. Kalau kata Nasywa "Aneh looh, Tante ini!".

Pengen banget bisa cerita semuanya dengan blak-blakan, karena kalau tahu alasan dibalik keanehan ini pasti kalian gak akan merasa ini aneh, wajar malah. Wajar sekali. Duh, bikin bingung ya? Intinya, cerita yang sedang Eci alami ini sebelumnya tidak pernah terbayangkan akan terjadi pada Eci. Jangankan membayangkan terjadi pada Eci, membayangkan terjadi pada orang-orang yang Eci kenal pun tidak. Ceritanya dramatis seperti di film, kisahnya dilematis seperti di lirik lagu. Bahkan mengancam kelangsungan hidup. Literally, um, or not. Well, mari bicarakan hal yang lain.

Hari ini akhirnya bisa libur, setelah nonton El Clasico (ehm) lanjut nyuci dan langsung siap-siap untuk lihat bayi nya Fina. Dijempur Riska, Gilang, dan 'Abi' nya Riska, kami berangkat ke Ambarawa, Pringsewu sekitar jam 10.30 WIB. Sudah hampir 6 bulan gak ketemu Fina, lihat dia dengan perut besarnya saja belum pernah. Huh sahabat macam apa saya ini.

Sedikit cerita tentang Fina: Fina Februaningrum, one of Eci's best friend. And i mean BEST. Orangnya cerdas, tapi sederhana. Asalnya dari desa, tapi pemikirannya sudah sangat maju dan tetap diiringi dengan segala batasan-batasan budayanya (maklum orang Jawa tulen). Apa pun yang Eci ceritakan, Fina pasti paham. Gak perlu berulang kali menjelaskan, malah terkadang cukup dengan tatapan mata saja sudah muncul saling pengertian diantara kami berdua. Dipertemukan di bangku kuliah, sudah 5 tahun kami menjadi teman baik. Seperti semua persahabatan diantara wanita, ada juga saat-saat sensitif, berantem, iri-irian, saling mendiamkan, baikan lagi. Tapi segalanya jadi lebih mudah karena Fina gak egois, selalu tahu kapan harus minta maaf dan kapan harus memaafkan.

Kalau dipikir-pikir lagi malah seringnya Eci yang nge-bully Fina :P. Eci kan dulu moody, perfeksionis, gak mau kalah jadi banyaknya Fina yang ngalah. Maafin Eci ya Fie. hehe.. Tapi Fina orangnya suka ragu, nah disitulah Eci berperan untuk Fina. Eci sering kasih saran-saran kalau Fina lagi butuh pertimbangan logis. Fina memutuskan untuk menikah di usia 23 tahun. Tepat 3 bulan setelah hari wisuda kami. Suaminya, Mas Satrio, harusnya banyak-banyak berterima kasih sama Eci (:P) karena dulu Eci yang encourage Fina untuk tinggalin mantannya yang madesu itu dan meyakinkan dia untuk membuka diri sama Mas Iyo (begitu panggilannyah). Hahaha.. Ya intinya mereka memang jodoh deh.

Nah, kemarin tanggal 10 Desember 2011, jam 20.00 WIB, saat gerhana bulan (penting ya disebut?), telah lahir putra pertama mereka. Tadi kami ke sana untuk jenguk ibu dan bayinya. Alhamdulillah keduanya sehat wal afiat. Aku terharu banget waktu gendong bayinya. What an amazing creature human is! Sahabatku Fina sudah diberi kepercayaan untuk membesarkan seorang putra. We really are growing old. Dari sama-sama MaBa innocent, kuliah, berorganisasi, lulus bareng, kerja, sampai akhirnya Fina menikah dan punya anak. Congratulation, my beloved Fina. Eci akan selalu mendoakan Fina dan insyaallah akan ada untuk Fina maupun keponakanku saat dibutuhkan. Walaupun Fina memilih untuk menjadi full time wife and mother (which is a very noble choice), Eci harap Fina gak berhenti bermimpi dan berusaha menggapai mimpi-mimpi Fina. Dan yang paling penting jangan pernah berhenti belajar. I love you, Sister.

The December 4th Post

My father threw a joke this morning. I was getting ready for work in this bright sunny sunday morning (yup, i'm working at Sunday, again). I was so late and all i did was walking back and forth from my room to my sister's then kitchen to living room etc. He then told me, "Where are you going? Thought you're getting married today, no?". I chuckled and answered, "Meet me at the reception hall today, Pa".

Don't worry, i'm fine. More than everyone could dare to expect. But most importantly, i'm fine because Papa is alright. I worried about him more than i did about Mama or my sisters.

Anyway, have a great Sunday, peeps! December 4th, 2011 only happens once. :)

DECEMBER

There were hopes and dreams. There were also moments when i didn't want it to come. There were anxiety towards it. And finally it hugging me, now. I can't resist. It's inevitable. What more i can say? Because the truth is i'm waiting for it. I'm curious of what will it bring to me.

Welcome, December.

What Life Taught Me

We should accept people the way they are, their present, and what they are aspire for their future. That includes accepting and forgiving their past and believe that there were always reasons in every mistakes and bad behavior at their past. People need chance to prove that they are willing to move forward and being a better person. All we have to do is sacrifice a little. Just a little, which is to have the ability to appreciate their big effort and accept them with open hands and big heart.

Foto Del Dia

Was so bored today so i took a pic and edited it with Picnik.

It is now Coral's wallpaper :D

Look who's gaining weight!

Sitting in living room with Mom. Daddy and Venny are watching a football match yelling and commenting like an expert. Why am i not watching? It's just Indonesia vs Malaysia, i'm not a big fan of both football teams, so.. :D (haha, guess if i mean it?)

Well, thanks God for my dad's addiction to facebook that i could post this from my house (again) now. Oh, and this is my first post using Coral! Coral is my new red notebook from Dell. She is so gorgeous and i love her already. This is my first computer that i have for my own. Before, it was always ours, a shared ownership between me and my sisters. Hehe.. But I'm grateful, if i've never learn how to share i wouldn't appreciate having something for my own. :)

(even Adis and fachrie are impressed :p)

Had a fun karaoke time with Mbak Ayu, Mbak Sri Rahayu and Mbak indah yesterday. Thank you girls, that "Waka-waka moment" was priceless :*.



I'm currently into :
1. Playing my old playlists.
2. Sondre Lerche.
3. Waiting.
4. Manggoes.
5. Sate.
6. Roller coaster of mood.
6. Dunhill Desire RED.
7. Oh and i eat ridiculous amount of sweets.

It's raining and i'm sleepy.
Good night.


PS: Happy Wedding for Kak Anggi and Happy 7th birthday, Caca!
PS2: All the best of luck to all of my students at their Mid Exam!! Be good, kids!

Now? Why?? How Come?

That was exact reaction from some people when i told them that i'm going to continue my study outta town. Yup, officially i've asked my office to let me go there. But i still haven't got any clear contract, explanation, or agreement with the institution. Some people might think that my idea is kinda odd, rush, or else, but i really don't understand why? I have reasons and i will explain why it should be done as soon as possible.

first. I'm in a comfort zone. And it's dangerous. As i've shared in my previous post about this, i feel good with my life now. But we must be careful if something works too well, means there's something bad about to come in. Or at least it would be some kind of lullaby that will makes us forget the world is bigger than what we have seen with our eyes now. I'm aware about this, so i have to do action, now!

second. I TEACH PEOPLE. I'm in a classroom 4 times a week trying to transfer a little knowledge i have to 20-40 students each classes. The more week passed by the more i realize that i know nothing. I am capable but i am also limited. Actually, I read books, i study like elementary student going to face final exam before i teach the next morning, i browse about things i don't know more than i've done before. But it's not enough. It won't be sufficient. I have to go back to classroom and let people with wider range of knowledge teach me directly. Period.

third. My daily routin at office consist of managing, handling, organizing postgraduate courses. Marketing, administration, financial, general affairs, academic stuff. In short, facilitate them to get a further education. Everyday i'm dealing with students, in weekend i meet senior lecturers giving knowledge to students and wonder: What makes me different from these students? Why didn't i in a classroom with them? Some of them has the same age range with me. And i shouldn't been here sitting in my square. "If today were the last day of my life, would i want to be the one who supervise final exam or the one who is doing the final exam?" Not both, but you get my poin, right? :P

fourth. This is a perfect momentum to change my life plan. I've cancelled my wedding. And it's not only about "no party on December 4th", it's deeper than that. Several plan needs to be reviewed. I need to remapped my choices and dreams in order to have a clear future design.

Well, i'm not going to listen to people who demotivates me. There will always that person/people whose happiness is depend on other's disappointment and failure. I'll stick with those who believe in my sincere intention to develop my self and without a doubt giving me motivation and moral support.

If it meant to be, it will be. We'll see in a month what would happened.

All together, finger crossed.

:)

I'll Love You For A Thousand More

Christina Perri has a new song!!!! Sadly, it's an official Breaking Dawn soundtrack. And you all know how i feel about Twilight Saga *straighface*. I don't want to start any kind of clash with FANGirls, so just enjoy this song, pals!! Its video clip has similar theme with her "Penguin" one, no?

Blessing in Sincerity

As i said, i've tried my best to let go my lost mobile phone. I consider it as no longer mine. I even had planned to buy a new one. Then last night, my sister got a text message from a number which said :

My sister screamed to get my attention. About seconds later, I called the sender number and found out that it's a woman. She only said "Hello" then she hang up. I tried to call her again and again but she didn't want to pick up anymore. I texted her, i tried to explain that it was my cell-phone in her hand. If she's the one who found it, i expected her to give it back to me. Finally, after a lot of phone calls (which she ignored) and several text messages, she picked up my call. She explained that her sister (who also a student in the college i work for) found it in Masjid Darmajaya and didn't know how to give it back to its owner. She also asked where i live etc. In short, she agreed to return my cellphone this morning.

(Lost Mobile Track, a feature in LG KE770 shine that could bring my mobile phone back!! LMT for the win!!)

I came to office a bit earlier, at 8am she showed up. She returned my LG safe and soundly. After 4 days separated i never wonder that it could get back to me. I'm grateful and could only say Alhamdulillah. What did i do that deserve this? A sloppy human being who is so careless with her possession. Thank you Allah. :')

Time To Do Some Changes

Yesterday, I arrived home at 7 pm and went to bed about an hour after. Almost everyday I had the same pattern, arrived home a bit late then sleeping like a baby. At 12.30am I found my consciousness, checked my blackberry, read several emails, notifications and messages. Replied to some and just let some unreplied. Still dealing with the fact that I've lost my cell-phone, though. :(

In the middle of replying an e-mail from my friend, something strike my mind eventually. I wasn't in a good mood all day and I was thinking too much (well, yes, I'm a melancholic). I think about what I'm doing in life right now. Everything seems so easy and going well for me. Have a job, make money by my own self, hang out with my friends once in a while, being close to family, friends, and my loved ones, being loved by many people, doesn't have any problems with anyone around me, etc. I'm not rich or in a top of my career yet but to be honest I'm happy and comfortable with what I'm doing now. Bottom line the word "comfortable".

But..

Oh wait, DAMN, Eci!! You shouldn't let your self comfortable, not now in a very young age! Not now when you still have all the choices in the world! I slapped my self and let my eyes wide opened. You gotta suffer once again!

So, I went out of my bedroom and saw my father sleeping in front of TV at our living room. I tiptoed to my parents' bedroom where my mom sleep tightly. I didn't want to wake her up so I just laid there beside her. I played with my blackberry for about 10 minutes until my Mom feel my existence in her side. She woke up and asked me why I've waken up too early. I just mumbled vaguely.

Then I asked her this question, "Ma, how if I quit my job?".

With her eyes barely open she answered, "um, why?".

I replied, "I want to go back to college. If I still couldn't found a way to go abroad, may you just let me continue my study here? You know, at Jakarta or Bandung or maybe Jogja or any place in Indonesia where there is a good FIKOM. If you could afford my tuition fee, then along with studying I will work my ass off to make money for my living expenses, books, etc. Maybe I can opted for a weekend class and working at weekdays there."

Mom touched my cheeks and said, "Well, just find any information of how much it cost then we'll talk about it again, ok?".

I smiled and told her, "I'll ask my friends ASAP, thanks Ma!" then I left to my bedroom.

Nah, that's it. I think I have to force my self to leave this comfort zone and being a student again. Leaving this town to stay in another place for the first time in my life and feel new experiences. Even if I know that it will be hard in the terms of adaptation, cost, etc. But if there's a will, there's a way.

Like my friend said: ya, saya kaleng. Yes, I can. :D

Last, enjoy these moving videos. Credit to Kak Tito for the Nutrilon video and Bang Citra who linked me to STA Travel Australia video from his facebook.

Cheers.

Happy friday!

Adios, My Precious Titanium Buddy!

Sebentar ya. Mau marah-marah sama diri sendiri. Belum 1 x 24 jam sih, tapi kayaknya official. Hand Phoneku yang LG KE770 shine hilang karena kecerobohanku. Lagi-lagi aku gak cek dengan baik sebelum pulang kantor, gak dipastikan banget apa HPku udah aman di dalam tas atau belum. Udah yang kesekian kali LGku ketinggalan di kantor, mulai dari masih di Admission Building sampai sudah pindah ke Pasca. Berkali-kali ketinggalan tapi selalu masih bisa ditemukan lagi, yah mungkin karena kemarin-kemarin itu masih rezeki. Ibaratnya manusia pasti kesabaran si LG ini sudah habis. Diperlakukan semena-mena, dinomorduakan semenjak ada yang baru dan lebih pintar dari dia. *ini ngomongin apa coba?*.

Ada aja ya cara Allah menegur aku. Ditegur pelan-pelan gak berubah juga, tetap teledor dan menggampangkan. Ya udah, diambil deh. Padahal aku masih butuh banget handphone itu. Selain karena hal-hal yang obvious yaitu fungsinya sebagai handphone, batre nya yang tergolong awet, blm pernah rusak sama sekali, memory cardnya udh 1 GB (dan banyak foto yang belum dipindah ke komputer :'( ), bentuknya simple etc. Alasan yang paling buat aku sedih adalah HP ini pemberian Pakde (kakaknya Mama). Dulu waktu kak Elin masih kuliah di Depok, aku masih sering bolak-balik ke Jakarta. Seringnya tinggal di rumah Pakde aku. One day Bude mau beli handphone, jadi aku, Kak Elin, Pakde, Bude, dan Yola berangkat cari handphone untuk Bude. Gak ada angin, gak ada hujan, aku dan Kak Elin dibeliin juga hand phone LG KE770 shine. Kak Elin yang silver dan aku yang titanium. Gak terbayang waktu itu senengnya gimana. HP N**ia jelek aku dan HP S**y Erri**on butut Kak Elin diganti dengan HP baru. Padahal kami berdua sama sekali gak minta. Itu bentuk sayangnya pakde ke kami berdua. Pakde memang selalu baik sama semua orang termasuk ke kami keponakan-keponakannya.

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Ya sudahlah, semoga handphone itu bermanfaat untuk yang menemukannya.

Maafin Eci ya Pakde. Semoga kejadian ini membuat Eci belajar untuk lebih hati-hati dan menjaga barang-barang Eci. Kecil atau besar, mahal atau murah, beli sendiri apalagi pemberian orang lain.

Foto Del Dia

Saturday is Casual Office Day. A day in a week where i could dressed up like when i was in my college-days. I borrowed Venny's SAS butterfly choco leather bag and wearing my new gold-black Wondershoe flatshoes that has arrived about a week ago. Yay!

Have a nice weekend!

Maybe Because I Was Born on Thursday

This post was written on Thursday, October 13th 2011, but due to some technical reasons this can only be posted today. :D

Coming home with enormously happy feeling in my heart. I feel like smiling all the time and my heart and soul felt so light. I often feel so happy at thursday, good thing likes to come to me on this day. I try to elaborate why this feeling exist. Perhaps I could do exact same thing everyday so I will have a happy feeling every single day.

I had a class today, my favorite thursday students. They are typical students, but I can feel that they're interested in the subject I taught. They want to hear what I told them, automatically that makes me want to give even more. 1.30 pm with dryness in my mouth I talked for 2 hours. But after that I don't feel any thirst, I even feel stronger than I've been this morning.

Arrived home and my little sister remind me that today is my parents 26th wedding anniversary. Yepp, October 13th 1985. The day they got married. A very important day for three of us, their daughters. Where all the love they have bring them together and being a beginning of three apples of their eyes. The start of this beautiful family. A place where I start learn what is love. Their love for each other has inspired me. Congratulations Mama and Papa. Thank you for decided to get married. That's why Kak Elin is here. That's why Venny is here. That's why I'm here.

(taken at Grandma's house, Gunung Megang on Idul Fitri 1432 H)

Tonight before I end my day, I read La Tahzan. I stumble across its pages and a topic interested me. "10 bunga hidup bahagia". At poin 7 the writer put "Berpuasa pada hari yang sangat panas" as one of the reason why we feel joy in life. And he also add a hadits which says "Meninggalkan makanan, minuman dan syahwatnya karena Aku (اَللّه )."

I remember of what happened today. Tears in my eyes. :')

"ai" or "eitch wai"?

Caution: This post is #firstworldproblem :P

I don't remember when exactly i started call my self Eci (Echy). But from what my parents said, I made that myself. When i was very little, i couldn't spell Yesi correctly. So my little tongue can only spell a blurry "esi" which made it sounds like "eci". Nah, when i start learn how to write, i wrote my name as "eci". Affected by trend (you aren't cool if your name doesn't have "h" before vowels or change every "i'' in your name to "y"), when i was at 5th or 6th grade in elementary school, i changed the way i wrote my name. "Eci" to "Echy". From then, i stick with "Echy".

Lately, a friend of mine who had known that i spell my self "echy" with "eitch wai" insist to spell my name "eci'. That makes me think, why don't i make it simple? "Eci" and "Echy" doesn't sounds different at all and i will save 1 letter everytime i type or write my name. Efficiency. Hence, from now on i will go back using "Eci" as my nickname. Hehehe..

Just to make this post doesn't waste your time at all, enjoy 5 latest top songs in my playlist hihi.

1. Everybody's Changing (all versions. The "Keane' one, "Lilly Allen" reggae version, and "Marian Dacal" version)

2. "Hell No" by Sondre Lerche and Regina Spektor

3. "Say Hello" by Rosie Thomas

4. "Bottle It Up" by Sara Bareilles

5. "Brighter Than The Sun" by Colbie Caillat

I also got many souvenir from my friends this week. Take a look!

Have a wonderful weekend!

:D

Foto Del Dia

A friend of mine gave me this purple orchid brooch. Gorgeous, isnt it? ;)

Stop. And Count To Ten.

Happy Friday :D

Wew, it's October already, getting closer to end of the year. How about take some time to pause and re-evaluate, what had we done in the last 9 months? Are we the same person as we are in January 2011? Or have we changed? A better one or stepping backwards? I question this to my own self too. Start from my 22nd birthday in January 26th, i realize that i'm growing, i'm a more mature person. I remember i still felt like i was a Daddy's little girl when i'm 21 years old. I still have the ego of teenager, Eci the rebel, the super stubborn one. Now, i feel calmer and wiser. I'm officially a grown woman. :)

In the terms of relationship, something might drastically changed, in fact it's over. But at the same time, it blooms another relationship aspect of my life. Family. My beloved Papa, Mama, Kak Elin, and Adek Venny. Especially with Mama, we've been through such a hard years. We saw things differently, our relationship was full of prejudice. We rarely talked and let each other knew what we really wanted. I love her, too much, but my ego and my field of experience as the second daughter of this family gave me some kind of feeling that whatever i've done will never made her proud. Something that now i admit wrong. That kind of thoughts should have not crossed my mind, never ever. Mama loves me, just like she loves the other two. Always been like that and won't change forever.

I know that since i broke up with him, Mama being more concerned of my feeling and being a perfect friend to talk to. One thing i promise my self, next time i introduce Mama to a guy for my future, i need to make sure that Mama will feel comfortable with him. Her saying is important just like she meant for me. But knowing Mama, she will be happy if i'm happy. So, Eci, first and foremost, ask yourself. I know better than anyone else whether a guy makes me happy or not. Like what Steve Jobs said (Rest in Peace :'( ) "as with all matters of heart, you'll know when you find it."

In professional life, i really hope that i could continue my study in upcoming years. Preferably overseas. I'm preparing my self now. I need to re-learn what i had learned from my Undergraduate degree. Looking for any opportunity to get scholarship, then i could be a professional lecturer in my own field of study. *Finger crossed*

Semangaaat Eci!!!

Stay Hunger! Stay Foolish!

PS: Happy 1st Anniversary of dating for Venny and Hatta! Be wise, know boundaries, and get married soon. (After me and Kak Elin, of course!! :P)

Foto Del Dia

(Location : Farmer's Market near my house.)

Desperate (no more)

(I put similar pic as my Blackberry Messenger display picture yesterday and my friends were all teased, huh that bitc*es :P)

Hello peeps,

The last time i post was all about broken heart but i barely couldn't believe that i almost done with all of that :D. I'm really happy now and i feel like a completely new person. I think i'm ready to move on and start a very new chapter of my life. I'm moving on. I have new spirit, new motivation, and most importantly new dreams (or let's call it old dreams resurrected).

Yesterday, i had my very first lecturing experience. The class is start at 13.30pm and butterflies was all over my stomach at 12.00pm. But everything turned out well, that was a fun experience and i'm so excited to do it again next week. There's a kind of satisfaction when i see the students interested in what i gave to them, asked many questions, and also answered my questions. Happy feeling which couldn't be redeemed with all money in the world. Hehe.. That was only a day, my first day and i already over the moon, i hope i can maintain this feeling and always have the same excitement everytime i doing my job. Amiin.

Things that made me happy these days also including final Thesis examination of 3 postgraduate students in my Institute! We made it! After two years we finally got Our first MTI! :)) I feel like a proud Mama, hahaha.. Hope there will be more in years to come!!

(Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task. Alhamdulillah, this uncompleted task of mine that had been hanging on like forever is finally finished. Yay! I made the preface loh, hehe)

You know with all mess that happened in my life, i need a new life map, a new plan for my future. I'm rearranging it now :) i know what i want and i believe i can do this. All i have to do is keep on learning, work hard, pray much, and then let Allah do the rest.

Lastly, i only ask for one more thing: Wish there will be someone who has similar dream and wants to make it come true with me, together, forever :). Amiin.. amiin.. amiin..

Ok, have a good day! Cheers for the future!

PS: I start playing online game again, it's the sims social that have my heart right now. Hehe.. But i promise i won't be too addicted. Or not :P

Easier Said Than Done

Have you ever feel like you are having a mixed emotions whether to be happy or sad or crushed or devastated or simply being sincere? I should feel happy, i know. I mean that's the meaning of loving someone no? Feel happy when he is happy, even though seeing him happy with other person because you both couldn't make each other happy. But it's easier said than done. It is easier said than done. Indeed.

Every Hello Has a Goodbye

Today, sitting in my chair, left hand supporting my head, right hand holding the mouse, i stare at my info page on Facebook, i stare and stare for don't know how long. It's not that important for me, I'm over facebook for quite long time anyway. But i feel the need to delete certain photos and i remember about my status. Yup Relationship Status, the exact line that i've been staring for minutes. Should i change it now?

It's funny how i was so sure that the time i change my status will be about "upgrade" it into engaged or, well, (least than four months) married. But now it's completely the opposite.. It still very hard for me. Almost every night i didn't want to sleep because everytime i woke up in the morning there's a feeling of emptiness, like my body will be shattered into pieces if i do even a very little movement. That feeling of loss. Like, was i dreaming? But then i know i'm not and that fact strike right in my head relentlessly.

No matter how difficult it sounds, it's not that bad though. I mean, i know there are a lot of people who suffered even worse than this. Let's not say about writing a post, they couldn't even move from their bed crying their heart out. But here i am still have conciousness to wrting you this story.

For you, the one in my memory. Thank you for being with me for 6 years. I could spend hours only to write what you've given to me, what you've taught me. But let it stays in my heart, let the memories alive in my head. Not to be regret, but as a lesson. I wholeheartedly wish you a happy life ahead.

I may regret how we ended, but i will never regret what we had.

Well,


..there's nothing left to say but goodbye.

Raising Empathy

The title should be "Raising Empathy: 101 ways to deal with a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico". Yup baby, this is not just a match, it is a WHITE PRIDE!! The ideal way is to apply a don't ask, don't bother rule. But some people got no clue how to treat a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico right. Here, i will kindly inform you how!

First of all people, y'all need to realize that this is important for her. THIS MATCH IS VERY VERY IMPORTANT. Never asking why, because everyone has different interest. I, my self, never come and tell someone in the face "Oh, so one of your cat just died? Move on, you have hundreds of cats. It's just a cat anyway." Nope, my friend, i don't like cat, i don't see why people should crying a river for a cat. But i know how to behave. Even though you don't understand, it's very easy to simply say: "Deepest condolences, buddy. His soul will remains with us".

Nah if you already understand the first rule. I will tell you a step by step to do things right.

If you're happened to be a Father of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico, you don't come from Shalat Subuh at Masjid and ask "How was the match?" "Who won?" Then you turn on the tv and watch sport news. No effing way! No effing way! -1000 for your empathy.

If you're happened to be a Mother of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico, you don't force her to bring Kacang Madu to be offered to your friend like there's no tomorrow. What were you thinking? Just leave her alone!

If you're happened to be a Sister of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You make sure that she will always 1Km away from any kind of newspaper, silly people, and sport news. You make sure her Real Madrid poster sticks properly at her wall. You make sure her jerseys folded well. You make sure that you're not about to borrow her bag. After you a hundred percent sure, you can then GTFO in peace.

If you're happened to be a boyfriend of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. Get real boy! She doesn't want to talk to anyone. She doesn't want you to pick her up. She doesn't want you to see her right now. And moreover, she doesn't need a thousand of PING!!! from you. And you know what even worse? A BBM display picture with the-opposing-team-who-shall-not-be-named holding trophy. Check your self!

If you're happened to be a friend of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You better give her a bunch of tissues, pillow and blanket, feed her with grapes and milk. The last thing you can do is to tease her, seriously. Slap your face, look at your choice. Silent has never been a better choice before.

If you're happened to be a workmate of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You are the worst, my friend. Y'all the last ones she expect to see but because there's something called life and responsibility you become the first ones she sees in the morning. I suggest you to act like nothing has ever happened. I warn you, never, NEVER EVER, laughing like mad in front of her and say "HAHAHA, MADRID KALAH NI YEE". You have no idea what you've done. You dig your own grave!

If you're happened to be a head of HRD in an office of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You don't dare punish her because she came late. All you have to do is: Raise her paycheck, give her an early THR, and let her come home at 12pm so she can rest her head out. You can also ask a driver to drive her home, that will be an added point.

If you're happened to be some random people at Angkot which contain a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You don't mention MES*I's name. You just don't. And you don't ask why!! A disgrace for all humankind.

If you're happened to be cule-family-members-incorporated-in-a-BBM-group with a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. Y'all grade E in term of emphaty. Why is it necessary to bashing around about the match when you KNOW EXACTLY that one of your family is heartbroken? Have it ever crossed your mind that maybe, just maybe, she is crying for hours of it?

If you're happened to be a pet of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You sit in the corner, shut the f**k up. Not crying for food nor pee. And stay there until she tells you to move.

ROTFLMAO in real life right now. Do you enjoy it? Because i do. I'm sorry, this post doesn't aim to anybody. All events just a make up story (a little based on real life, a little tho). I'm just releasing my tension and stress. I hate you Barfa so much right now. You lucky bi**hes. Enjoy your trophy because it's the only one you'll get this season.

I'm proud of my boys, we had fought till the end last night. We will have a good season ahead darlings. In Mou we trust.

Now,would you excuse me. I'm going to get back in the corner and cry.

Perplexity

I really hate being in doubt, yet i doubt much lately. That thing is killing me. I don't know how to react to it. It is closer and closer, time won't go back. People said when in doubt, don't do it. But then i'm stepping in to another doubt: to trust that saying or not. What an abstract mind human can have? I don't want to regret anything later like i did now. Yes, i admit it. I did regret that thing i've done, i've chosen in 9/8. All i need was wait and calm my self then everything would be ok. But i followed my ego. And things getting more complicated. I have this admittedly insane idea which need all bravery left in my self. But then again, i'm still in doubt..

Unexpected Climate Change

A : Look, that's Yesi!

B : Yesi who?

A : Yesi the lecturer!

-______-

(hahahaha garing parah.)

So, people.. Semester ini saya dikasih jam ngajar. Mata kuliah yang di-plot tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah *drumroll* Kecakapan Personal! Looks like God wants me to stay close with everything related to interpersonal communication and co. I imagine he says : "you love this subject, no?" "nah, here have some more!". -__-!!

Actually, i have some kind of bond with Interpersonal Communication (IC). From the time i knew that this subject is exist in communication studies, i know i'll love it. I want to know more about this. Coincidentally, my interpersonal comm lecturer is one of my fav lecturer too and she taught us with ~style. And we all know (we all? maksudnya saya, tuhan sama tembok hihi) skripsi saya juga akhirnya mengangkat tentang IC.

The thing is, belum juga dimulai mengajar Kecakapan Personal, saya sudah bermasalah dengan "Kecakapan Personal" saya. I keep questioning, do i have a lecturer quality? Am i a lecturer material? Yes, here comes "that" Echy again. I need to get rid of this feeling, have my chin up, and just do it. A person who has issue with self confidence and self esteem can't teach other people about personal skills. Need to write this in my mind again, and again, and again....

Guisee, i really hope i can transmit the knowledge well!! Repeat after me:

Break a leg, E!!!

Obligatory Once in a Month Friday Post..

Heiyyaa there! such a pretty Friday here..

There's a lot of story i want to share. But before we go far to happy stories such as my sister's 20th birthday. I want to put my thought about something that happened just now.

Someone makes me rage this morning by saying that my grey blouse doesn't match with red cardigan i am wearing. She did it in such a way like she is a fashion expert perfected with her sardonic smile and head shake. Excuse me!! Who the hell are you? New Emma Watson? Nope, so better shut up. This person can't leave a day by not hurting my heart or whoever poor soul she has met. It is not the first time she threw sharp words without thinking about other people's feeling. This red cardigan scene is not the point. But this certain person is. Why couldn't she learn that whatever comes out her mouth is always bring down people. I think she is old enough to understand that there is manner in expressing opinion! Actually i really don't care of what she's doing as long as it doesn't ruin my mood. But she always managed to hurt me and i can't take it EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

Another annoying thing: So, another someone asked me to participate in a Blog competition. This competition held by Lampung Government as a part of Lampung Fair 2011. The rule is about put a writing in our blog about a theme that they had specified before. At first i was interested to take part because they would give an ipad for the winner, but after i read the theme i feel kinda ~meh. I really hate anything related to government body or whatever they did to ~supposedly bring forward our town. I don't need to elaborate why i hate them, because i think i've written a post about this before. But the point is i don't want to put something that i don't feel fun writing it. Why should i? My blog has to represent my exact thought, right? Not something commercial or based on hypocrisy. I don't want people to force me to follow the competition and tell me that this is just a competition where i could make a story up. Hell to the no. No way! I followed a contest involving my blog before and i will do it again as long as i love the topic and feel fun doing it. Period.

Whoosaaaahh.. Inhale.. Exhale.. Ok, i'm done with my resentment. Hehe..

Okay, nexttt..

My pretty little sister (which is not little anymore btw) just had her 20th birthday at July 7th 2011. We've made a surprise for her including cakes and presents. But honestly, that was awkwardly fun. Because i've known that she was expecting the whole things and couldn't sleep. :D Her boyfriend, Hatta, gave him a blackberry that she wanted for looong time, we wanted to give it to her in style but hadn't plan it well. It became antiklimaks at the end of the day. But at least i've made a cute surprise that she didn't expect. When she opened her blackberry messenger for the first time, she found out that some of her friends has been added to her contact list and surprisingly almost all of them using the same display picture. This one :

Hehe..

Here's pictures of the birthday girl:

And her delizz cake:

another cute cake from her friends:

Ehm, what else huh? My daily life is still boring as before because it only consist of non stop working. New season still hasn't begin yet but yay! for the preseason. We have signed some new player like Nuri Sahin, Hamit Altintop, Jose Callejon, Raphael Varane, and Fabio Coentrão. I will start to love this new merengues and i believe it won't be too hard because the likes of Nuri Sahin and Raphael varane are lovable, no? Lately i really love listening to Christina Perri's songs. She has a great voice. Strongly recommended! Also, i found out that watching the Kardashians family is such a fun way to release tension and stress.. hehe..

Last, I want to say hi to new readers of this blog because i know there are some :P.

Here, have my smile :D

Have a good day!!

1001 Ways To Be Happy Part.1

At my office, friday break time is held at 11.30 am to 13.30 pm. For us girls that's a lot of time to be wasted for lunch only. So, some girls are spend it to go to mall, have a lunch a little far away, etc. But i like to have my friday break with my own way which is stay at my desk :D. Why? Because that time everyone isn't around so i can play songs loudly at my computer and, ehm, sing a long also loudly. Hehe.. I really love it.. A friend of mine at office once asked me: Don't you feel bored being the only one at office while other people are having fun with their free time? I just smiled from ear to ear and said: I'm having fun too, just so you know.. hehehehe..

Maaf, numpang curhat..

Pengen nulis. Banget. Pengen cerita banyak. Pengen nge-post. Pengen ngisi tumblr. Pengen bikin cerpen, cerbung, atau novel sekalian. Tapi ntah kapan. Sekalinya ketemu weekend cucian numpuk, setrikaan menggunung, kamar kayak kapal pecah, buku banyak yang belum dibaca, tontonan bagus-bagus, belum lagi kalau harus menjalankan tugas sebagai pacar yang baik, kakak yang baik, adik yang baik, anak yang baik, teman yang baik, tante yang baik. Eh, gak kerasa udah hari senin lagi, batal deh menuangkan ide-ide yang udah numpuk di kepala. Kadang-kadang bisa nge-post kalau lagi di kantor, itu juga kalau kerjaan lagi gak numpuk di meja (which is jarang banget).

Yah sekedar brief news, saat ini Liga-liga Eropa libur :'(, kalau pulang kerja capek biasanya tetap excited karena midweek atau weekend ada pertandingan sepakbola. Sekarang kalau capek ya capek aja gak ada obatnya.. huhu.. Penawar lelah buat aku cuma ada 2: Sepakbola dan Anak Kecil. Tapi ketemu Ibas udah jarang. Kadang-kadang kalau lagi beruntung bisa ketemu anaknya temen2 kantor, tapi gak cukup :'( (maybe i need to have one :P).

Yang jelas aku baru menemukan lagi pelajaran hidup. Bahwa di dunia kerja sangat sulit mencari sahabat sejati. Batas antara kawan dan lawan remang-remang. Boleh berteman tapi jangan berharap mereka selalu ada, selalu mendukung, selalu menginginkan yang terbaik untukmu. Kembali lah ke sahabat-sahabatmu di luar lingkungan kerja. Sahabat-sahabat yang sudah ada sejak lama. Yang ada di masa-masa paling sulit hidupmu dan tentu ada juga di saat-saat bahagiamu. Mereka itu sahabatmu, bukan orang-orang yang kamu temui setiap hari.

Orang-orang itu, yang 8 to 5 bersamamu, walaupun gak semuanya berniat jahat tapi lingkungan, situasi, dan kondisi yang membuat setiap individu harus berusaha sendiri menjaga dirinya baik-baik kalau mau survive di dunia kerja. Haha.. terdengar menakut-nakuti ya? Tapi itu terjadi, so hati-hati..

6 bulan yang lalu aku berpikir bahwa hubungan interpersonal itu bisa dipercaya. Tahap berkenalan-bertegur sapa-saling gali informasi-saling curhat-merasa dekat-saling dukung akhirnya akan lives happily ever after. Ternyata tidak, di dalamnya gak ada faith, gak ada believe, gak ada love. Butuh banyak hal disamping pertemuan setiap hari untuk membuat dua orang individu saling mengenal dan mempercayai.

Sekarang aku gak mau banyak berharap, aku akan nice sama semua orang. Aku akan bantu kalau mereka butuh pertolongan tapi aku gak mengharapkan persahabatan, itu too much to ask. Keluargaku dan teman-teman sejatiku, mereka lebih butuh perhatian dan kasih sayangku. :))

What I've Learned From Life

Humans are not to be trusted. Gak peduli seberapa dekat kamu dengan mereka, seberapa lama kamu bersama mereka, seberapa baik mereka terlihat, seperti apapun penampilan mereka, entah berjilbab besar, preman, wajah polos, orang kaya, orang miskin, pendidikan tinggi, gak berpendidikan, atau apapun. I repeat: apapun. Never reveal yourself too much. Trust Allah SWT instead.

For You Guys!!

"Treat your girl right or other man will"

-Pevita Pearce on her Twitter (though i believe she doesn't invent it by herself)-

of kids, flowers, and durian

-of kids-

I lust over kids. Even more lately. Is this a sign or what?

I know several people have said that i can be a very good kindergarten teacher. But i didn't know that i could really in love with kids this much. I can fall in love with them even in my first meeting. Kids are too cute for word, too honest and pure. Everytime they see me through my eyes i feel like they are scanning my soul. They can see what inside us, inside heart.

Nah, coincidentally, i've met so many kids lately. All of them are my friend's children. And i love them all.

First, i'll introduce Nasywa, my boss' daughter. She is so smart, sweet, and mature. Such a lovely girl.

(i made her a picture of herself and she didn't bother bring it home with her because she said it's ugly and her mother wouldn't like it. *rolleyes)

Number two there is Alma. Mbak Dina's daughter. She is very very pretty, a kind of girl whose face won't make you get bored to stare at. And she is also very playful and smart. She would welcome a stranger very well. Poor Alma just got typhus at the day i took this picture.. :(

(she was eating, so her mouth full of rice :D)

(i gave Alma this pretty Snow White figure key chain, she adores Disney Princess just like me :))

Numero tres and cuatro are Pak Abdi's sons, Fachrie and Fayadh. God!! they are handsome, cute, and typical boys (you know mischievous etc). But i like them, really. I couldn't get a better picture of this two brothers, sorry :(.

(this one is Fachrie)

(and this one is Fayadh)

(cuteness overload)

At this rate i need to be careful if i'm going to meet another workplace friend's children or i can make a brigade full of boys and girl.

-flowers-

Other obsession is flower. I love staring at flowers for hours and still don't get why they can be such a very pretty creature. Even the fake ones could be so fascinating and mysterious. I've taken so many photos of flower with my shitty phone-cam at office, drugstore, roadside, home etc. And i'll share here. I'll let you guess which ones are fake and which ones are real.

-and durian-

People are freaking crazy about Durian. Durian is everywhere. Literally. Just take a buss and go around Lampung you'll see it in EVERY single roadside.

I'm not really into Durian, nevertheless i did eat them because of the hype. Ok, i think i need to hit the gym ASAP.

Bye.