This morning, my father bought a local newspaper which contained the announcement of Civil Servants recruitment held by my town. I haven't really count it but i reckon thousand or so people has become a new "public servants" at my province. Well, i don't know if i should congratulate or simply show an "i'm not impressed" reaction.
Everytime i see the name list, the first thing coming to my mind is "how much they pay for that position?", "Is it her mother or her uncle who has a connection?". Okay, call me cynical but i'm the one who has lost -almost all- of my trust for this country specifically for my government. But i also confused by people at this country (well, some of them but still a great number of 'em), why so proud giving a tons of money to be part of broken bureaucracy? What happened to "believe in my very own ability"? What happened to "working hard to gain succeed"? I'm concerned of how most people think this is the only way they can do for living.
I know several names at that list, and i think one or two of them really deserve the job because of their ability. But then again there are also people i know who got this job years ago and they were seem so sincere, a hard working people, honest, etc but ended have business with the court blah.. blah.. That's where my doubt coming from, the prospect of turning a good person into a sinner that my government has. This is like an evil machine without anyone knows how to turn this off. This is exactly why i don't want to be a civil employee, i really don't want to be a part of this. And i thanked god my parents raise me in a very fair circumstances, a father that giving example how to not bewitched by gold and fame, a mother who showed how to dedicate ourselves to a job we have. I'm a good girl and i'll never let anything change it. I'll accept the low payment which i get right now, and work hard to get acknowledgment later. because i believe in my self, i believe in justice, i believe in Allah SWT.
This, remind me why i love football in general. A footballer have to work hard and sacrificed everything when they were just a child. They can't fully enjoy their childhood like other kids did. Some of them had to live far from their families. They had to face a rejection, injuries, and low point to be a "somebody". And it is worth it. They later deserved of every penny they've earned and popularity they've got. Otherwise, when they're already at the top they still can't stop improving themselves in order to keep their position and being a professionals. And those value which infiltrate me the most, only if you work hard you'll get everything you deserve to. I would rather work hard than a shortcut. So, I'll keep improving my self, i'll keep learning, and i hope in the end i'll get recognition.
But to be fair, everyone has their own opinion and way of thinking. This is just my opinion and people can agree or disagree. I'm not saying there's no one left in our government who are really qualified (That's why i gave a try in a recruitment held by ministry of communication and information a while ago). I also believe that there's somebody out there who still has heart and principles, who appreciate capability and honesty. I'm not giving up and wishing someday my beloved country will run by good hearted people who also has skills.
I end this post with picture of two of many hardworking footballers whose life story is such a very good example for everyone. Two footballers from my favorite club. Two footballers who -rumours has it- are having internal conflicts which i think just a bullshit and rubbish that media and Real-haters made.
(In case you can't tell, this is el capitan of Spain and Portugal, Iker Casillas and Cristiano Ronaldo, from Real Madrid)
PS: Talking about country, i give my support for Indonesia National Team in AFF championship final!! buena suerte!
