the essenchy's

Photo Del Dia

2012-02-19T15:03:00.003+07:00

This photo was taken at my friend's wedding reception. 06.01.2012.

It's raining and it's Sunday..

2012-02-19T14:16:00.003+07:00

I should have feel comfortable inside my warm bedroom, chilling, drinking hot chocolate and munching cookies. But I am not. I feel so tired and my mind is anywhere but here. I remember of how annoying yesterday was. I'm fed up with that place and the people in it. How can i let my self trapped so long there? I have no idea. I don't want to becoming one of them, for the God sake, hell no. Tonight I must go to Palembang to finish some stuff. Going there is the last thing i want do when I actually have something more important to care about. Especially with all those mess related to this trip. I'm all like ~meh. But a duty is a duty. In the name of professionalism, just consider it's done.

I have plan about these whole situation, about my future, and all i need is a little courage. Yes, a courage to take the risks and all consequences from my choice. I have three months left. I still am going to do my best, like I always do. But I won't care anymore, if they don't want to show any responsibility as they must have shown, then let it be. I will only care about my main job and stop trying so hard to "build" this place. Enough is enough.

Everything just went wrong and all i have been doing (other than doing my main job) is connecting person with person, person with their responsibility, person with their duties. WTF? Let's stop talking about this or i don't know if i could managed to stop rant.

Well, i probably will have a Bappenas TPA test by the next Sunday. I need the minimum score 550. wish me luck. I guarantee that this week will be the busiest week ever. I need to stay healthy both physically and mentally which means i have to stay away from trouble for a moment. To be specific, I will protect my self from any contact with that certain immature yet irrational woman. She seemed like quiet now, but who knows what a person with the potential to harm people could do. Wish me another luck.

Ok, i have to pack my bag.

See ya peeps, enjoy your beautiful Sunday (because i don't have one)! :)

Saya harus nulis, saya ingin nulis, sekarang juga.

2012-02-15T17:46:00.005+07:00

Entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini hidup saya kurang menarik. Terasa itu-itu saja yang dilakukan, bosan dengan pekerjaan yang tidak ada habisnya. Tapi sebenarnya bukan itu yang terjadi, bukan karena kesibukan dan rutinitas. Yang terjadi adalah saya mulai kurang memaknai setiap detail dalam hari-hari saya. Setelah saya baca lagi berulang-ulang tulisan-tulisan lama saya di blog ini sebenarnya tidak terlalu jauh berbeda. Dulu pun saya biasa-biasa saja, jadi mahasiswa juga bukan mahasiswa yang ekstra sibuk dengan kegiatan seabreg. Bahkan bisa dibilang sekarang lebih banyak hal baru yang saya alami di tempat kerja, hasil interaksi dengan orang-orang di sekitar, atau kejadian-kejadian tidak biasa yang tidak pernah terjadi sebelumnya seumur hidup saya. Bedanya saya mulai berpikir terlalu berat, semakin kehilangan rasa "kanak-kanak". Do you see what i mean? Kalau kita selalu punya rasa "kanak-kanak" maka memakan satu cup es krim hari ini akan terasa sangat spesial, setiap pencapaian sekecil apapun will made your day.

Banyak hal yang sudah saya lakukan, banyak hal-hal kecil yang accomplished tapi tidak lagi saya syukuri sebagai sesuatu yang penting bagi saya unlike 1 or 2 years ago. Saya ingin kembali, kembali menjadi orang yang bisa membahagiakan diri saya sendiri. Yang tersenyum di depan kaca sambil bicara sendiri setiap pagi, yang menjadi sangat gembira memulai aktifitas karena semangkuk oatmeal dengan topping "baru", yang menggambar apapun yang saya lihat walaupun hasilnya aneh dan menggelikan, yang berteriak-teriak kegirangan karena berhasil mem-valid-kan EPSBED, yang sangat senang bisa makan pizza bersama kakak, yang kegirangan saat bangun pagi hari dan melihat Barca kehilangan poin lagi di Liga, yang senyum-senyum dengan perut penuh kupu-kupu saat membaca pesan singkat "selamat pagi" atau "jangan lupa makan siang dan shalat".

Kejadiannya masih ada, sama, setiap harinya. Tapi cara saya memaknainya yang berbeda dan membuat itu semua tak lagi spesial. Saya hanya perlu mengembalikan cara pandang saya tentang hidup, maka saya akan kembali berbahagia.

Maka berbahagialah, Eci. Matahari pukul 08.00 itu masih ada. :))

Mari mulai menulis (kejadian-kejadian kurang penting) lagii... :D

This is a Baby Post!!

2011-12-12T00:01:00.000+07:00

Temanku pernah protes, katanya kalau buat tulisan ga pake Bahasa Inggris "so not you". Hehe.. Tapi biar deh sekali-sekali boleh lah ya. Akhir-akhir ini perasaan sedang campur aduk. Stress, banyak pikiran, was-was, menyebabkan malas makan, malas kerja, malas belajar, malas merawat diri, malas olah raga, malas baca. Tapi disaat yang bersamaan merasa bahagia, nyaman, lebih sabar, dan belajar melihat kehidupan dari sisi yang berbeda. Kalau kata Nasywa "Aneh looh, Tante ini!".

Pengen banget bisa cerita semuanya dengan blak-blakan, karena kalau tahu alasan dibalik keanehan ini pasti kalian gak akan merasa ini aneh, wajar malah. Wajar sekali. Duh, bikin bingung ya? Intinya, cerita yang sedang Eci alami ini sebelumnya tidak pernah terbayangkan akan terjadi pada Eci. Jangankan membayangkan terjadi pada Eci, membayangkan terjadi pada orang-orang yang Eci kenal pun tidak. Ceritanya dramatis seperti di film, kisahnya dilematis seperti di lirik lagu. Bahkan mengancam kelangsungan hidup. Literally, um, or not. Well, mari bicarakan hal yang lain.

Hari ini akhirnya bisa libur, setelah nonton El Clasico (ehm) lanjut nyuci dan langsung siap-siap untuk lihat bayi nya Fina. Dijempur Riska, Gilang, dan 'Abi' nya Riska, kami berangkat ke Ambarawa, Pringsewu sekitar jam 10.30 WIB. Sudah hampir 6 bulan gak ketemu Fina, lihat dia dengan perut besarnya saja belum pernah. Huh sahabat macam apa saya ini.

Sedikit cerita tentang Fina: Fina Februaningrum, one of Eci's best friend. And i mean BEST. Orangnya cerdas, tapi sederhana. Asalnya dari desa, tapi pemikirannya sudah sangat maju dan tetap diiringi dengan segala batasan-batasan budayanya (maklum orang Jawa tulen). Apa pun yang Eci ceritakan, Fina pasti paham. Gak perlu berulang kali menjelaskan, malah terkadang cukup dengan tatapan mata saja sudah muncul saling pengertian diantara kami berdua. Dipertemukan di bangku kuliah, sudah 5 tahun kami menjadi teman baik. Seperti semua persahabatan diantara wanita, ada juga saat-saat sensitif, berantem, iri-irian, saling mendiamkan, baikan lagi. Tapi segalanya jadi lebih mudah karena Fina gak egois, selalu tahu kapan harus minta maaf dan kapan harus memaafkan.

Kalau dipikir-pikir lagi malah seringnya Eci yang nge-bully Fina :P. Eci kan dulu moody, perfeksionis, gak mau kalah jadi banyaknya Fina yang ngalah. Maafin Eci ya Fie. hehe.. Tapi Fina orangnya suka ragu, nah disitulah Eci berperan untuk Fina. Eci sering kasih saran-saran kalau Fina lagi butuh pertimbangan logis. Fina memutuskan untuk menikah di usia 23 tahun. Tepat 3 bulan setelah hari wisuda kami. Suaminya, Mas Satrio, harusnya banyak-banyak berterima kasih sama Eci (:P) karena dulu Eci yang encourage Fina untuk tinggalin mantannya yang madesu itu dan meyakinkan dia untuk membuka diri sama Mas Iyo (begitu panggilannyah). Hahaha.. Ya intinya mereka memang jodoh deh.

Nah, kemarin tanggal 10 Desember 2011, jam 20.00 WIB, saat gerhana bulan (penting ya disebut?), telah lahir putra pertama mereka. Tadi kami ke sana untuk jenguk ibu dan bayinya. Alhamdulillah keduanya sehat wal afiat. Aku terharu banget waktu gendong bayinya. What an amazing creature human is! Sahabatku Fina sudah diberi kepercayaan untuk membesarkan seorang putra. We really are growing old. Dari sama-sama MaBa innocent, kuliah, berorganisasi, lulus bareng, kerja, sampai akhirnya Fina menikah dan punya anak. Congratulation, my beloved Fina. Eci akan selalu mendoakan Fina dan insyaallah akan ada untuk Fina maupun keponakanku saat dibutuhkan. Walaupun Fina memilih untuk menjadi full time wife and mother (which is a very noble choice), Eci harap Fina gak berhenti bermimpi dan berusaha menggapai mimpi-mimpi Fina. Dan yang paling penting jangan pernah berhenti belajar. I love you, Sister.

The December 4th Post

2011-12-04T11:03:00.004+07:00

My father threw a joke this morning. I was getting ready for work in this bright sunny sunday morning (yup, i'm working at Sunday, again). I was so late and all i did was walking back and forth from my room to my sister's then kitchen to living room etc. He then told me, "Where are you going? Thought you're getting married today, no?". I chuckled and answered, "Meet me at the reception hall today, Pa".

Don't worry, i'm fine. More than everyone could dare to expect. But most importantly, i'm fine because Papa is alright. I worried about him more than i did about Mama or my sisters.

Anyway, have a great Sunday, peeps! December 4th, 2011 only happens once. :)

DECEMBER

2011-12-01T03:15:00.004+07:00

There were hopes and dreams. There were also moments when i didn't want it to come. There were anxiety towards it. And finally it hugging me, now. I can't resist. It's inevitable. What more i can say? Because the truth is i'm waiting for it. I'm curious of what will it bring to me.

Welcome, December.

What Life Taught Me

2011-11-30T08:59:00.004+07:00

We should accept people the way they are, their present, and what they are aspire for their future. That includes accepting and forgiving their past and believe that there were always reasons in every mistakes and bad behavior at their past. People need chance to prove that they are willing to move forward and being a better person. All we have to do is sacrifice a little. Just a little, which is to have the ability to appreciate their big effort and accept them with open hands and big heart.

Foto Del Dia

2011-11-18T15:50:00.004+07:00

Was so bored today so i took a pic and edited it with Picnik.

It is now Coral's wallpaper :D

Look who's gaining weight!

2011-11-17T20:39:00.011+07:00

Sitting in living room with Mom. Daddy and Venny are watching a football match yelling and commenting like an expert. Why am i not watching? It's just Indonesia vs Malaysia, i'm not a big fan of both football teams, so.. :D (haha, guess if i mean it?)

Well, thanks God for my dad's addiction to facebook that i could post this from my house (again) now. Oh, and this is my first post using Coral! Coral is my new red notebook from Dell. She is so gorgeous and i love her already. This is my first computer that i have for my own. Before, it was always ours, a shared ownership between me and my sisters. Hehe.. But I'm grateful, if i've never learn how to share i wouldn't appreciate having something for my own. :)

(even Adis and fachrie are impressed :p)

Had a fun karaoke time with Mbak Ayu, Mbak Sri Rahayu and Mbak indah yesterday. Thank you girls, that "Waka-waka moment" was priceless :*.

I'm currently into :
1. Playing my old playlists.
2. Sondre Lerche.
3. Waiting.
4. Manggoes.
5. Sate.
6. Roller coaster of mood.
6. Dunhill Desire RED.
7. Oh and i eat ridiculous amount of sweets.

It's raining and i'm sleepy.
Good night.

PS: Happy Wedding for Kak Anggi and Happy 7th birthday, Caca!
PS2: All the best of luck to all of my students at their Mid Exam!! Be good, kids!

Now? Why?? How Come?

2011-11-01T14:45:00.006+07:00

That was exact reaction from some people when i told them that i'm going to continue my study outta town. Yup, officially i've asked my office to let me go there. But i still haven't got any clear contract, explanation, or agreement with the institution. Some people might think that my idea is kinda odd, rush, or else, but i really don't understand why? I have reasons and i will explain why it should be done as soon as possible.

first. I'm in a comfort zone. And it's dangerous. As i've shared in my previous post about this, i feel good with my life now. But we must be careful if something works too well, means there's something bad about to come in. Or at least it would be some kind of lullaby that will makes us forget the world is bigger than what we have seen with our eyes now. I'm aware about this, so i have to do action, now!

second. I TEACH PEOPLE. I'm in a classroom 4 times a week trying to transfer a little knowledge i have to 20-40 students each classes. The more week passed by the more i realize that i know nothing. I am capable but i am also limited. Actually, I read books, i study like elementary student going to face final exam before i teach the next morning, i browse about things i don't know more than i've done before. But it's not enough. It won't be sufficient. I have to go back to classroom and let people with wider range of knowledge teach me directly. Period.

third. My daily routin at office consist of managing, handling, organizing postgraduate courses. Marketing, administration, financial, general affairs, academic stuff. In short, facilitate them to get a further education. Everyday i'm dealing with students, in weekend i meet senior lecturers giving knowledge to students and wonder: What makes me different from these students? Why didn't i in a classroom with them? Some of them has the same age range with me. And i shouldn't been here sitting in my square. "If today were the last day of my life, would i want to be the one who supervise final exam or the one who is doing the final exam?" Not both, but you get my poin, right? :P

fourth. This is a perfect momentum to change my life plan. I've cancelled my wedding. And it's not only about "no party on December 4th", it's deeper than that. Several plan needs to be reviewed. I need to remapped my choices and dreams in order to have a clear future design.

Well, i'm not going to listen to people who demotivates me. There will always that person/people whose happiness is depend on other's disappointment and failure. I'll stick with those who believe in my sincere intention to develop my self and without a doubt giving me motivation and moral support.

If it meant to be, it will be. We'll see in a month what would happened.

All together, finger crossed.

:)

I'll Love You For A Thousand More

2011-10-29T12:45:00.006+07:00

Christina Perri has a new song!!!! Sadly, it's an official Breaking Dawn soundtrack. And you all know how i feel about Twilight Saga *straighface*. I don't want to start any kind of clash with FANGirls, so just enjoy this song, pals!! Its video clip has similar theme with her "Penguin" one, no?

Blessing in Sincerity

2011-10-24T12:40:00.006+07:00

As i said, i've tried my best to let go my lost mobile phone. I consider it as no longer mine. I even had planned to buy a new one. Then last night, my sister got a text message from a number which said :

My sister screamed to get my attention. About seconds later, I called the sender number and found out that it's a woman. She only said "Hello" then she hang up. I tried to call her again and again but she didn't want to pick up anymore. I texted her, i tried to explain that it was my cell-phone in her hand. If she's the one who found it, i expected her to give it back to me. Finally, after a lot of phone calls (which she ignored) and several text messages, she picked up my call. She explained that her sister (who also a student in the college i work for) found it in Masjid Darmajaya and didn't know how to give it back to its owner. She also asked where i live etc. In short, she agreed to return my cellphone this morning.

(Lost Mobile Track, a feature in LG KE770 shine that could bring my mobile phone back!! LMT for the win!!)

I came to office a bit earlier, at 8am she showed up. She returned my LG safe and soundly. After 4 days separated i never wonder that it could get back to me. I'm grateful and could only say Alhamdulillah. What did i do that deserve this? A sloppy human being who is so careless with her possession. Thank you Allah. :')

Time To Do Some Changes

2011-10-21T08:19:00.006+07:00

Yesterday, I arrived home at 7 pm and went to bed about an hour after. Almost everyday I had the same pattern, arrived home a bit late then sleeping like a baby. At 12.30am I found my consciousness, checked my blackberry, read several emails, notifications and messages. Replied to some and just let some unreplied. Still dealing with the fact that I've lost my cell-phone, though. :(

In the middle of replying an e-mail from my friend, something strike my mind eventually. I wasn't in a good mood all day and I was thinking too much (well, yes, I'm a melancholic). I think about what I'm doing in life right now. Everything seems so easy and going well for me. Have a job, make money by my own self, hang out with my friends once in a while, being close to family, friends, and my loved ones, being loved by many people, doesn't have any problems with anyone around me, etc. I'm not rich or in a top of my career yet but to be honest I'm happy and comfortable with what I'm doing now. Bottom line the word "comfortable".

But..

Oh wait, DAMN, Eci!! You shouldn't let your self comfortable, not now in a very young age! Not now when you still have all the choices in the world! I slapped my self and let my eyes wide opened. You gotta suffer once again!

So, I went out of my bedroom and saw my father sleeping in front of TV at our living room. I tiptoed to my parents' bedroom where my mom sleep tightly. I didn't want to wake her up so I just laid there beside her. I played with my blackberry for about 10 minutes until my Mom feel my existence in her side. She woke up and asked me why I've waken up too early. I just mumbled vaguely.

Then I asked her this question, "Ma, how if I quit my job?".

With her eyes barely open she answered, "um, why?".

I replied, "I want to go back to college. If I still couldn't found a way to go abroad, may you just let me continue my study here? You know, at Jakarta or Bandung or maybe Jogja or any place in Indonesia where there is a good FIKOM. If you could afford my tuition fee, then along with studying I will work my ass off to make money for my living expenses, books, etc. Maybe I can opted for a weekend class and working at weekdays there."

Mom touched my cheeks and said, "Well, just find any information of how much it cost then we'll talk about it again, ok?".

I smiled and told her, "I'll ask my friends ASAP, thanks Ma!" then I left to my bedroom.

Nah, that's it. I think I have to force my self to leave this comfort zone and being a student again. Leaving this town to stay in another place for the first time in my life and feel new experiences. Even if I know that it will be hard in the terms of adaptation, cost, etc. But if there's a will, there's a way.

Like my friend said: ya, saya kaleng. Yes, I can. :D

Last, enjoy these moving videos. Credit to Kak Tito for the Nutrilon video and Bang Citra who linked me to STA Travel Australia video from his facebook.

Cheers.

Happy friday!

Adios, My Precious Titanium Buddy!

2011-10-20T08:37:00.006+07:00

Sebentar ya. Mau marah-marah sama diri sendiri. Belum 1 x 24 jam sih, tapi kayaknya official. Hand Phoneku yang LG KE770 shine hilang karena kecerobohanku. Lagi-lagi aku gak cek dengan baik sebelum pulang kantor, gak dipastikan banget apa HPku udah aman di dalam tas atau belum. Udah yang kesekian kali LGku ketinggalan di kantor, mulai dari masih di Admission Building sampai sudah pindah ke Pasca. Berkali-kali ketinggalan tapi selalu masih bisa ditemukan lagi, yah mungkin karena kemarin-kemarin itu masih rezeki. Ibaratnya manusia pasti kesabaran si LG ini sudah habis. Diperlakukan semena-mena, dinomorduakan semenjak ada yang baru dan lebih pintar dari dia. *ini ngomongin apa coba?*.

Ada aja ya cara Allah menegur aku. Ditegur pelan-pelan gak berubah juga, tetap teledor dan menggampangkan. Ya udah, diambil deh. Padahal aku masih butuh banget handphone itu. Selain karena hal-hal yang obvious yaitu fungsinya sebagai handphone, batre nya yang tergolong awet, blm pernah rusak sama sekali, memory cardnya udh 1 GB (dan banyak foto yang belum dipindah ke komputer :'( ), bentuknya simple etc. Alasan yang paling buat aku sedih adalah HP ini pemberian Pakde (kakaknya Mama). Dulu waktu kak Elin masih kuliah di Depok, aku masih sering bolak-balik ke Jakarta. Seringnya tinggal di rumah Pakde aku. One day Bude mau beli handphone, jadi aku, Kak Elin, Pakde, Bude, dan Yola berangkat cari handphone untuk Bude. Gak ada angin, gak ada hujan, aku dan Kak Elin dibeliin juga hand phone LG KE770 shine. Kak Elin yang silver dan aku yang titanium. Gak terbayang waktu itu senengnya gimana. HP N**ia jelek aku dan HP S**y Erri**on butut Kak Elin diganti dengan HP baru. Padahal kami berdua sama sekali gak minta. Itu bentuk sayangnya pakde ke kami berdua. Pakde memang selalu baik sama semua orang termasuk ke kami keponakan-keponakannya.

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Ya sudahlah, semoga handphone itu bermanfaat untuk yang menemukannya.

Maafin Eci ya Pakde. Semoga kejadian ini membuat Eci belajar untuk lebih hati-hati dan menjaga barang-barang Eci. Kecil atau besar, mahal atau murah, beli sendiri apalagi pemberian orang lain.

Foto Del Dia

2011-10-15T14:52:00.004+07:00

Saturday is Casual Office Day. A day in a week where i could dressed up like when i was in my college-days. I borrowed Venny's SAS butterfly choco leather bag and wearing my new gold-black Wondershoe flatshoes that has arrived about a week ago. Yay!

Have a nice weekend!

Maybe Because I Was Born on Thursday

2011-10-14T07:42:00.013+07:00

This post was written on Thursday, October 13th 2011, but due to some technical reasons this can only be posted today. :D

Coming home with enormously happy feeling in my heart. I feel like smiling all the time and my heart and soul felt so light. I often feel so happy at thursday, good thing likes to come to me on this day. I try to elaborate why this feeling exist. Perhaps I could do exact same thing everyday so I will have a happy feeling every single day.

I had a class today, my favorite thursday students. They are typical students, but I can feel that they're interested in the subject I taught. They want to hear what I told them, automatically that makes me want to give even more. 1.30 pm with dryness in my mouth I talked for 2 hours. But after that I don't feel any thirst, I even feel stronger than I've been this morning.

Arrived home and my little sister remind me that today is my parents 26th wedding anniversary. Yepp, October 13th 1985. The day they got married. A very important day for three of us, their daughters. Where all the love they have bring them together and being a beginning of three apples of their eyes. The start of this beautiful family. A place where I start learn what is love. Their love for each other has inspired me. Congratulations Mama and Papa. Thank you for decided to get married. That's why Kak Elin is here. That's why Venny is here. That's why I'm here.

(taken at Grandma's house, Gunung Megang on Idul Fitri 1432 H)

Tonight before I end my day, I read La Tahzan. I stumble across its pages and a topic interested me. "10 bunga hidup bahagia". At poin 7 the writer put "Berpuasa pada hari yang sangat panas" as one of the reason why we feel joy in life. And he also add a hadits which says "Meninggalkan makanan, minuman dan syahwatnya karena Aku (اَللّه )."

I remember of what happened today. Tears in my eyes. :')

"ai" or "eitch wai"?

2011-10-08T10:09:00.006+07:00

Caution: This post is #firstworldproblem :P

I don't remember when exactly i started call my self Eci (Echy). But from what my parents said, I made that myself. When i was very little, i couldn't spell Yesi correctly. So my little tongue can only spell a blurry "esi" which made it sounds like "eci". Nah, when i start learn how to write, i wrote my name as "eci". Affected by trend (you aren't cool if your name doesn't have "h" before vowels or change every "i'' in your name to "y"), when i was at 5th or 6th grade in elementary school, i changed the way i wrote my name. "Eci" to "Echy". From then, i stick with "Echy".

Lately, a friend of mine who had known that i spell my self "echy" with "eitch wai" insist to spell my name "eci'. That makes me think, why don't i make it simple? "Eci" and "Echy" doesn't sounds different at all and i will save 1 letter everytime i type or write my name. Efficiency. Hence, from now on i will go back using "Eci" as my nickname. Hehehe..

Just to make this post doesn't waste your time at all, enjoy 5 latest top songs in my playlist hihi.

1. Everybody's Changing (all versions. The "Keane' one, "Lilly Allen" reggae version, and "Marian Dacal" version)

2. "Hell No" by Sondre Lerche and Regina Spektor

3. "Say Hello" by Rosie Thomas

4. "Bottle It Up" by Sara Bareilles

5. "Brighter Than The Sun" by Colbie Caillat

I also got many souvenir from my friends this week. Take a look!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Foto Del Dia

2011-10-07T17:07:00.003+07:00

A friend of mine gave me this purple orchid brooch. Gorgeous, isnt it? ;)

Stop. And Count To Ten.

2011-10-07T09:59:00.005+07:00

Happy Friday :D

Wew, it's October already, getting closer to end of the year. How about take some time to pause and re-evaluate, what had we done in the last 9 months? Are we the same person as we are in January 2011? Or have we changed? A better one or stepping backwards? I question this to my own self too. Start from my 22nd birthday in January 26th, i realize that i'm growing, i'm a more mature person. I remember i still felt like i was a Daddy's little girl when i'm 21 years old. I still have the ego of teenager, Eci the rebel, the super stubborn one. Now, i feel calmer and wiser. I'm officially a grown woman. :)

In the terms of relationship, something might drastically changed, in fact it's over. But at the same time, it blooms another relationship aspect of my life. Family. My beloved Papa, Mama, Kak Elin, and Adek Venny. Especially with Mama, we've been through such a hard years. We saw things differently, our relationship was full of prejudice. We rarely talked and let each other knew what we really wanted. I love her, too much, but my ego and my field of experience as the second daughter of this family gave me some kind of feeling that whatever i've done will never made her proud. Something that now i admit wrong. That kind of thoughts should have not crossed my mind, never ever. Mama loves me, just like she loves the other two. Always been like that and won't change forever.

I know that since i broke up with him, Mama being more concerned of my feeling and being a perfect friend to talk to. One thing i promise my self, next time i introduce Mama to a guy for my future, i need to make sure that Mama will feel comfortable with him. Her saying is important just like she meant for me. But knowing Mama, she will be happy if i'm happy. So, Eci, first and foremost, ask yourself. I know better than anyone else whether a guy makes me happy or not. Like what Steve Jobs said (Rest in Peace :'( ) "as with all matters of heart, you'll know when you find it."

In professional life, i really hope that i could continue my study in upcoming years. Preferably overseas. I'm preparing my self now. I need to re-learn what i had learned from my Undergraduate degree. Looking for any opportunity to get scholarship, then i could be a professional lecturer in my own field of study. *Finger crossed*

Semangaaat Eci!!!

Stay Hunger! Stay Foolish!

PS: Happy 1st Anniversary of dating for Venny and Hatta! Be wise, know boundaries, and get married soon. (After me and Kak Elin, of course!! :P)

Foto Del Dia

2011-09-23T17:25:00.005+07:00

(Location : Farmer's Market near my house.)

Desperate (no more)

2011-09-23T08:46:00.006+07:00

(I put similar pic as my Blackberry Messenger display picture yesterday and my friends were all teased, huh that bitc*es :P)

Hello peeps,

The last time i post was all about broken heart but i barely couldn't believe that i almost done with all of that :D. I'm really happy now and i feel like a completely new person. I think i'm ready to move on and start a very new chapter of my life. I'm moving on. I have new spirit, new motivation, and most importantly new dreams (or let's call it old dreams resurrected).

Yesterday, i had my very first lecturing experience. The class is start at 13.30pm and butterflies was all over my stomach at 12.00pm. But everything turned out well, that was a fun experience and i'm so excited to do it again next week. There's a kind of satisfaction when i see the students interested in what i gave to them, asked many questions, and also answered my questions. Happy feeling which couldn't be redeemed with all money in the world. Hehe.. That was only a day, my first day and i already over the moon, i hope i can maintain this feeling and always have the same excitement everytime i doing my job. Amiin.

Things that made me happy these days also including final Thesis examination of 3 postgraduate students in my Institute! We made it! After two years we finally got Our first MTI! :)) I feel like a proud Mama, hahaha.. Hope there will be more in years to come!!

(Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task. Alhamdulillah, this uncompleted task of mine that had been hanging on like forever is finally finished. Yay! I made the preface loh, hehe)

You know with all mess that happened in my life, i need a new life map, a new plan for my future. I'm rearranging it now :) i know what i want and i believe i can do this. All i have to do is keep on learning, work hard, pray much, and then let Allah do the rest.

Lastly, i only ask for one more thing: Wish there will be someone who has similar dream and wants to make it come true with me, together, forever :). Amiin.. amiin.. amiin..

Ok, have a good day! Cheers for the future!

PS: I start playing online game again, it's the sims social that have my heart right now. Hehe.. But i promise i won't be too addicted. Or not :P

Easier Said Than Done

2011-09-07T15:01:00.003+07:00

Have you ever feel like you are having a mixed emotions whether to be happy or sad or crushed or devastated or simply being sincere? I should feel happy, i know. I mean that's the meaning of loving someone no? Feel happy when he is happy, even though seeing him happy with other person because you both couldn't make each other happy. But it's easier said than done. It is easier said than done. Indeed.

Every Hello Has a Goodbye

2011-09-06T08:48:00.000+07:00

Today, sitting in my chair, left hand supporting my head, right hand holding the mouse, i stare at my info page on Facebook, i stare and stare for don't know how long. It's not that important for me, I'm over facebook for quite long time anyway. But i feel the need to delete certain photos and i remember about my status. Yup Relationship Status, the exact line that i've been staring for minutes. Should i change it now?

It's funny how i was so sure that the time i change my status will be about "upgrade" it into engaged or, well, (least than four months) married. But now it's completely the opposite.. It still very hard for me. Almost every night i didn't want to sleep because everytime i woke up in the morning there's a feeling of emptiness, like my body will be shattered into pieces if i do even a very little movement. That feeling of loss. Like, was i dreaming? But then i know i'm not and that fact strike right in my head relentlessly.

No matter how difficult it sounds, it's not that bad though. I mean, i know there are a lot of people who suffered even worse than this. Let's not say about writing a post, they couldn't even move from their bed crying their heart out. But here i am still have conciousness to wrting you this story.

For you, the one in my memory. Thank you for being with me for 6 years. I could spend hours only to write what you've given to me, what you've taught me. But let it stays in my heart, let the memories alive in my head. Not to be regret, but as a lesson. I wholeheartedly wish you a happy life ahead.

I may regret how we ended, but i will never regret what we had.

Well,

..there's nothing left to say but goodbye.

Raising Empathy

2011-08-18T07:42:00.008+07:00

The title should be "Raising Empathy: 101 ways to deal with a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico". Yup baby, this is not just a match, it is a WHITE PRIDE!! The ideal way is to apply a don't ask, don't bother rule. But some people got no clue how to treat a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico right. Here, i will kindly inform you how!

First of all people, y'all need to realize that this is important for her. THIS MATCH IS VERY VERY IMPORTANT. Never asking why, because everyone has different interest. I, my self, never come and tell someone in the face "Oh, so one of your cat just died? Move on, you have hundreds of cats. It's just a cat anyway." Nope, my friend, i don't like cat, i don't see why people should crying a river for a cat. But i know how to behave. Even though you don't understand, it's very easy to simply say: "Deepest condolences, buddy. His soul will remains with us".

Nah if you already understand the first rule. I will tell you a step by step to do things right.

If you're happened to be a Father of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico, you don't come from Shalat Subuh at Masjid and ask "How was the match?" "Who won?" Then you turn on the tv and watch sport news. No effing way! No effing way! -1000 for your empathy.

If you're happened to be a Mother of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico, you don't force her to bring Kacang Madu to be offered to your friend like there's no tomorrow. What were you thinking? Just leave her alone!

If you're happened to be a Sister of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You make sure that she will always 1Km away from any kind of newspaper, silly people, and sport news. You make sure her Real Madrid poster sticks properly at her wall. You make sure her jerseys folded well. You make sure that you're not about to borrow her bag. After you a hundred percent sure, you can then GTFO in peace.

If you're happened to be a boyfriend of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. Get real boy! She doesn't want to talk to anyone. She doesn't want you to pick her up. She doesn't want you to see her right now. And moreover, she doesn't need a thousand of PING!!! from you. And you know what even worse? A BBM display picture with the-opposing-team-who-shall-not-be-named holding trophy. Check your self!

If you're happened to be a friend of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You better give her a bunch of tissues, pillow and blanket, feed her with grapes and milk. The last thing you can do is to tease her, seriously. Slap your face, look at your choice. Silent has never been a better choice before.

If you're happened to be a workmate of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You are the worst, my friend. Y'all the last ones she expect to see but because there's something called life and responsibility you become the first ones she sees in the morning. I suggest you to act like nothing has ever happened. I warn you, never, NEVER EVER, laughing like mad in front of her and say "HAHAHA, MADRID KALAH NI YEE". You have no idea what you've done. You dig your own grave!

If you're happened to be a head of HRD in an office of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You don't dare punish her because she came late. All you have to do is: Raise her paycheck, give her an early THR, and let her come home at 12pm so she can rest her head out. You can also ask a driver to drive her home, that will be an added point.

If you're happened to be some random people at Angkot which contain a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You don't mention MES*I's name. You just don't. And you don't ask why!! A disgrace for all humankind.

If you're happened to be cule-family-members-incorporated-in-a-BBM-group with a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. Y'all grade E in term of emphaty. Why is it necessary to bashing around about the match when you KNOW EXACTLY that one of your family is heartbroken? Have it ever crossed your mind that maybe, just maybe, she is crying for hours of it?

If you're happened to be a pet of a-Madridista-who-had-just-lost-at-a-fuckin-clasico. You sit in the corner, shut the f**k up. Not crying for food nor pee. And stay there until she tells you to move.

ROTFLMAO in real life right now. Do you enjoy it? Because i do. I'm sorry, this post doesn't aim to anybody. All events just a make up story (a little based on real life, a little tho). I'm just releasing my tension and stress. I hate you Barfa so much right now. You lucky bi**hes. Enjoy your trophy because it's the only one you'll get this season.

I'm proud of my boys, we had fought till the end last night. We will have a good season ahead darlings. In Mou we trust.

Now,would you excuse me. I'm going to get back in the corner and cry.

Perplexity

2011-08-12T11:55:00.004+07:00

I really hate being in doubt, yet i doubt much lately. That thing is killing me. I don't know how to react to it. It is closer and closer, time won't go back. People said when in doubt, don't do it. But then i'm stepping in to another doubt: to trust that saying or not. What an abstract mind human can have? I don't want to regret anything later like i did now. Yes, i admit it. I did regret that thing i've done, i've chosen in 9/8. All i need was wait and calm my self then everything would be ok. But i followed my ego. And things getting more complicated. I have this admittedly insane idea which need all bravery left in my self. But then again, i'm still in doubt..

Unexpected Climate Change

2011-08-09T11:36:00.008+07:00

A : Look, that's Yesi!

B : Yesi who?

A : Yesi the lecturer!

-______-

(hahahaha garing parah.)

So, people.. Semester ini saya dikasih jam ngajar. Mata kuliah yang di-plot tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah *drumroll* Kecakapan Personal! Looks like God wants me to stay close with everything related to interpersonal communication and co. I imagine he says : "you love this subject, no?" "nah, here have some more!". -__-!!

Actually, i have some kind of bond with Interpersonal Communication (IC). From the time i knew that this subject is exist in communication studies, i know i'll love it. I want to know more about this. Coincidentally, my interpersonal comm lecturer is one of my fav lecturer too and she taught us with ~style. And we all know (we all? maksudnya saya, tuhan sama tembok hihi) skripsi saya juga akhirnya mengangkat tentang IC.

The thing is, belum juga dimulai mengajar Kecakapan Personal, saya sudah bermasalah dengan "Kecakapan Personal" saya. I keep questioning, do i have a lecturer quality? Am i a lecturer material? Yes, here comes "that" Echy again. I need to get rid of this feeling, have my chin up, and just do it. A person who has issue with self confidence and self esteem can't teach other people about personal skills. Need to write this in my mind again, and again, and again....

Guisee, i really hope i can transmit the knowledge well!! Repeat after me:

Break a leg, E!!!

Obligatory Once in a Month Friday Post..

2011-07-15T10:59:00.011+07:00

Heiyyaa there! such a pretty Friday here..

There's a lot of story i want to share. But before we go far to happy stories such as my sister's 20th birthday. I want to put my thought about something that happened just now.

Someone makes me rage this morning by saying that my grey blouse doesn't match with red cardigan i am wearing. She did it in such a way like she is a fashion expert perfected with her sardonic smile and head shake. Excuse me!! Who the hell are you? New Emma Watson? Nope, so better shut up. This person can't leave a day by not hurting my heart or whoever poor soul she has met. It is not the first time she threw sharp words without thinking about other people's feeling. This red cardigan scene is not the point. But this certain person is. Why couldn't she learn that whatever comes out her mouth is always bring down people. I think she is old enough to understand that there is manner in expressing opinion! Actually i really don't care of what she's doing as long as it doesn't ruin my mood. But she always managed to hurt me and i can't take it EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

Another annoying thing: So, another someone asked me to participate in a Blog competition. This competition held by Lampung Government as a part of Lampung Fair 2011. The rule is about put a writing in our blog about a theme that they had specified before. At first i was interested to take part because they would give an ipad for the winner, but after i read the theme i feel kinda ~meh. I really hate anything related to government body or whatever they did to ~supposedly bring forward our town. I don't need to elaborate why i hate them, because i think i've written a post about this before. But the point is i don't want to put something that i don't feel fun writing it. Why should i? My blog has to represent my exact thought, right? Not something commercial or based on hypocrisy. I don't want people to force me to follow the competition and tell me that this is just a competition where i could make a story up. Hell to the no. No way! I followed a contest involving my blog before and i will do it again as long as i love the topic and feel fun doing it. Period.

Whoosaaaahh.. Inhale.. Exhale.. Ok, i'm done with my resentment. Hehe..

Okay, nexttt..

My pretty little sister (which is not little anymore btw) just had her 20th birthday at July 7th 2011. We've made a surprise for her including cakes and presents. But honestly, that was awkwardly fun. Because i've known that she was expecting the whole things and couldn't sleep. :D Her boyfriend, Hatta, gave him a blackberry that she wanted for looong time, we wanted to give it to her in style but hadn't plan it well. It became antiklimaks at the end of the day. But at least i've made a cute surprise that she didn't expect. When she opened her blackberry messenger for the first time, she found out that some of her friends has been added to her contact list and surprisingly almost all of them using the same display picture. This one :

Hehe..

Here's pictures of the birthday girl:

And her delizz cake:

another cute cake from her friends:

Ehm, what else huh? My daily life is still boring as before because it only consist of non stop working. New season still hasn't begin yet but yay! for the preseason. We have signed some new player like Nuri Sahin, Hamit Altintop, Jose Callejon, Raphael Varane, and Fabio Coentrão. I will start to love this new merengues and i believe it won't be too hard because the likes of Nuri Sahin and Raphael varane are lovable, no? Lately i really love listening to Christina Perri's songs. She has a great voice. Strongly recommended! Also, i found out that watching the Kardashians family is such a fun way to release tension and stress.. hehe..

Last, I want to say hi to new readers of this blog because i know there are some :P.

Here, have my smile :D

Have a good day!!

1001 Ways To Be Happy Part.1

2011-06-24T13:26:00.004+07:00

At my office, friday break time is held at 11.30 am to 13.30 pm. For us girls that's a lot of time to be wasted for lunch only. So, some girls are spend it to go to mall, have a lunch a little far away, etc. But i like to have my friday break with my own way which is stay at my desk :D. Why? Because that time everyone isn't around so i can play songs loudly at my computer and, ehm, sing a long also loudly. Hehe.. I really love it.. A friend of mine at office once asked me: Don't you feel bored being the only one at office while other people are having fun with their free time? I just smiled from ear to ear and said: I'm having fun too, just so you know.. hehehehe..

Maaf, numpang curhat..

2011-06-16T14:25:00.004+07:00

Pengen nulis. Banget. Pengen cerita banyak. Pengen nge-post. Pengen ngisi tumblr. Pengen bikin cerpen, cerbung, atau novel sekalian. Tapi ntah kapan. Sekalinya ketemu weekend cucian numpuk, setrikaan menggunung, kamar kayak kapal pecah, buku banyak yang belum dibaca, tontonan bagus-bagus, belum lagi kalau harus menjalankan tugas sebagai pacar yang baik, kakak yang baik, adik yang baik, anak yang baik, teman yang baik, tante yang baik. Eh, gak kerasa udah hari senin lagi, batal deh menuangkan ide-ide yang udah numpuk di kepala. Kadang-kadang bisa nge-post kalau lagi di kantor, itu juga kalau kerjaan lagi gak numpuk di meja (which is jarang banget).

Yah sekedar brief news, saat ini Liga-liga Eropa libur :'(, kalau pulang kerja capek biasanya tetap excited karena midweek atau weekend ada pertandingan sepakbola. Sekarang kalau capek ya capek aja gak ada obatnya.. huhu.. Penawar lelah buat aku cuma ada 2: Sepakbola dan Anak Kecil. Tapi ketemu Ibas udah jarang. Kadang-kadang kalau lagi beruntung bisa ketemu anaknya temen2 kantor, tapi gak cukup :'( (maybe i need to have one :P).

Yang jelas aku baru menemukan lagi pelajaran hidup. Bahwa di dunia kerja sangat sulit mencari sahabat sejati. Batas antara kawan dan lawan remang-remang. Boleh berteman tapi jangan berharap mereka selalu ada, selalu mendukung, selalu menginginkan yang terbaik untukmu. Kembali lah ke sahabat-sahabatmu di luar lingkungan kerja. Sahabat-sahabat yang sudah ada sejak lama. Yang ada di masa-masa paling sulit hidupmu dan tentu ada juga di saat-saat bahagiamu. Mereka itu sahabatmu, bukan orang-orang yang kamu temui setiap hari.

Orang-orang itu, yang 8 to 5 bersamamu, walaupun gak semuanya berniat jahat tapi lingkungan, situasi, dan kondisi yang membuat setiap individu harus berusaha sendiri menjaga dirinya baik-baik kalau mau survive di dunia kerja. Haha.. terdengar menakut-nakuti ya? Tapi itu terjadi, so hati-hati..

6 bulan yang lalu aku berpikir bahwa hubungan interpersonal itu bisa dipercaya. Tahap berkenalan-bertegur sapa-saling gali informasi-saling curhat-merasa dekat-saling dukung akhirnya akan lives happily ever after. Ternyata tidak, di dalamnya gak ada faith, gak ada believe, gak ada love. Butuh banyak hal disamping pertemuan setiap hari untuk membuat dua orang individu saling mengenal dan mempercayai.

Sekarang aku gak mau banyak berharap, aku akan nice sama semua orang. Aku akan bantu kalau mereka butuh pertolongan tapi aku gak mengharapkan persahabatan, itu too much to ask. Keluargaku dan teman-teman sejatiku, mereka lebih butuh perhatian dan kasih sayangku. :))

What I've Learned From Life

2011-06-11T13:37:00.002+07:00

Humans are not to be trusted. Gak peduli seberapa dekat kamu dengan mereka, seberapa lama kamu bersama mereka, seberapa baik mereka terlihat, seperti apapun penampilan mereka, entah berjilbab besar, preman, wajah polos, orang kaya, orang miskin, pendidikan tinggi, gak berpendidikan, atau apapun. I repeat: apapun. Never reveal yourself too much. Trust Allah SWT instead.

For You Guys!!

2011-06-11T07:50:00.004+07:00

"Treat your girl right or other man will"

-Pevita Pearce on her Twitter (though i believe she doesn't invent it by herself)-

of kids, flowers, and durian

2011-06-10T13:05:00.011+07:00

-of kids-

I lust over kids. Even more lately. Is this a sign or what?

I know several people have said that i can be a very good kindergarten teacher. But i didn't know that i could really in love with kids this much. I can fall in love with them even in my first meeting. Kids are too cute for word, too honest and pure. Everytime they see me through my eyes i feel like they are scanning my soul. They can see what inside us, inside heart.

Nah, coincidentally, i've met so many kids lately. All of them are my friend's children. And i love them all.

First, i'll introduce Nasywa, my boss' daughter. She is so smart, sweet, and mature. Such a lovely girl.

(i made her a picture of herself and she didn't bother bring it home with her because she said it's ugly and her mother wouldn't like it. *rolleyes)

Number two there is Alma. Mbak Dina's daughter. She is very very pretty, a kind of girl whose face won't make you get bored to stare at. And she is also very playful and smart. She would welcome a stranger very well. Poor Alma just got typhus at the day i took this picture.. :(

(she was eating, so her mouth full of rice :D)

(i gave Alma this pretty Snow White figure key chain, she adores Disney Princess just like me :))

Numero tres and cuatro are Pak Abdi's sons, Fachrie and Fayadh. God!! they are handsome, cute, and typical boys (you know mischievous etc). But i like them, really. I couldn't get a better picture of this two brothers, sorry :(.

(this one is Fachrie)

(and this one is Fayadh)

(cuteness overload)

At this rate i need to be careful if i'm going to meet another workplace friend's children or i can make a brigade full of boys and girl.

-flowers-

Other obsession is flower. I love staring at flowers for hours and still don't get why they can be such a very pretty creature. Even the fake ones could be so fascinating and mysterious. I've taken so many photos of flower with my shitty phone-cam at office, drugstore, roadside, home etc. And i'll share here. I'll let you guess which ones are fake and which ones are real.

-and durian-

People are freaking crazy about Durian. Durian is everywhere. Literally. Just take a buss and go around Lampung you'll see it in EVERY single roadside.

I'm not really into Durian, nevertheless i did eat them because of the hype. Ok, i think i need to hit the gym ASAP.

Bye.

a note to be noted

2011-05-24T20:30:00.005+07:00

For those it may concern:

If you think that talking about me could make you better than me. You are wrong.
If you think you could judge me based on whatever you've heard from other people. You better check yourself.
If you think you are completely holy and never done anything wrong. You are making me laugh.
If you think i would crying in the corner, losing all my focus, and stop chasing my dream. You may kiss my ass.
You don't even know me and i don't know you either. Now i suggest you to get a life. And stop minding other people's business.

Sincerely,
Awesome me.

Decision

2011-05-18T10:50:00.006+07:00

Bukan sesulit menentukan apakah harga ВВМ perlu dinaikkan atau memutuskan untuk membubarkan organisasi Islam tertentu ala pimpinan negara. Juga bukan sesulit Mourinho menentukan starting eleven dalam El Clasico ke-121341242353 musim ini disaat pemain banyak yang absen karena cedera atau akumulasi kartu.

But it was hard, I tell you. Menentukan mau melanjutkan kerja dimana di titik yang sangat krusial untuk masa depan benar2 menguras tenaga, pikiran, hati, dan ketegaran.

Try to stand in my shoes, katakanlah kamu a girl not yet a woman usia 22 tahun. Punya mimpi dan motivasi yang tinggiiiiii dalam hidup. Somehow stuck in a place yang punya irama kerja yang tergolong slow untuk dinamika hidupnya. Cukup diakui kemampuannya tapi kurang dihargai dalam arti yangg sebenarnya (a.k.a digaji bagai kuli). Pas diakhir kontrak datang tawaran lain yang benar2 menjanjikan, yang sesuai dengan karakternya, yang mau menghargai kemampuannya...

Well, sounds easy at the beginning, siapapun yg dengar gak perlu think twice dan pasti akan menyarankan untuk pindah ke perusahaan baru ini. Tapi ternyata urusannya lebih kompleks dari itu, aku dihadapkan dengan seribu faktor X di luar memilih salary yang tepat.

Tempat aku kerja saat ini gak buruk, in fact kami (can I say "kami" now?) bergerak di bidang pendidikan yang menurut aku sangat mulia objective nya. Secara organisasi kalau diibaratkan dengan manusia mungkin cocok disebut sedang dalam masa pertumbuhan. Kebijakan-kebijakan banyak yang belum fix dan tumpang tindih, sistem belum berjalan sepenuhnya. Tapi disisi lain banyak juga yang positif, cukup banyak orang-orang muda yang punya pemikiran ok dan masih punya semangat untuk membangun dan mengembangkan tempat ini. I believe soon this place will be outstanding.

Kalau secara pribadi aku cukup nyaman kerja di sini, mereka (pimpinan) gak buta dengan hasil kerja bawahan. Yang berprestasi bakal dapat compliment while yang nyeleneh juga dapat teguran. Banyak hal yang aku pelajari selama 6 bulan kerja di sini. As a fresh graduate they welcome me very well. Aku yang notabene nya tipe orang yang introvert dan sulit akrab dengan orang baru pada akhirnya bisa juga berbaur dengan mereka (with huge effort in my side :P). Tentang like and dislike sih gak perlu dibahas ya, soalnya itu gak bisa dihindari selama masih ada di kolong bumi. ‎hehe

Fasilitas bisa dibilang lumayan, tempat bekerja nyaman, lokasi juga strategis walaupun agak jauh dari rumahku (emang ada tempat yang gk jauh dari rumahku?). Aku juga melihat prospek yang cukup baik untuk aku mengembangkan diri di bidang pendidikan.

But, seperti yang aku bilang mereka benar2 menggaji aku kayak kuli. Hello, aku susah-susah kuliah S1 sehingganya punya gelar S.I.Kom! Belum lagi dibalik gelar itu aku sisipkan gak cuma IPK yang di atas rata-rata tapi juga pengalaman organisasi yang cukup untuk masuk dunia kerja. Orang tuaku banting tulang, peras keringat buat bikin aku jadi seperti ini. Tapi sampai saat ini bahkan aku belum bisa kasih apa-apa untuk mereka. Aku benar-benar geleng kepala, miris setiap liat slip gaji. I don't mean to be arrogant, aku yg paling tau limit aku dan aku merasa pantas untuk di gaji lebih dari itu.

Then, kesempatan itu datang. Saat aku bener2 gerah tentang kepastian hidup aku dsini, aku taruh CV ditempat lain dan setelah lewat beberapa rangkaian tes mereka mw hire aku dgn paycheck awal (masa training) 2,5 kali lipat dr tempat yg lama.

Oke disini lah mulai masuk ke complexity nya. I have comitment, a big one, yg menahan aku untuk bekerja di tempat yang gak terlalu sulit secara time allocation atau beban kerja (won't tell much about this now). Tapi disisi lain aku tau aku bisa, kalau ada sesuatu yg bisa aku banggain dari diri aku itu adalah kemamauan untuk belajar, belajar, dan belajar. Jadi selama aku mau belajar, apapun bisa aku raih kan? Walaupun rumour has it that working di tempat yang baru ini bakal 2 kali lebih capek, lebih menantang, lebih sulit tapi aku yakin aku bisa. Honestly aku jg merasa tertantang.

I was really confused, aku dihadapkan sama dua pilihan yang bener-bener fifty fifty. Dua duanya punya plus and minus side yang sama. Orang-orang terdekat aku juga punya pendapat yang berbeda tentang ini, ada yang menyarankan ambil dengan alasan yang sudah jelas (gaji, karier, masa depan) ada juga yang pengen aku tetap di tempat lama (minoritas sih hehe). Bener-bener gak bikin aku bulat mau ambil keputusan apa.

Finally, sampai di titik aku perlu mendalami diri aku sendiri, apa sebenarnya yang aku mau? Mau konsen ke karier dengan segala macam kesibukannya, barter semua waktu, tenaga, pikiran yang aku punya dengan uang. Atau aku mau fokus ke hal lain yang juga penting dalam hidup yaitu berkeluarga, membangun rumah tangga, punya anak, membesarkan mereka dengan baik sambil tetap bekerja di tempat yang tentunya bisa mentolerir itu semua?

Ok, akhirnya aku punya rencana yang lebih baik: BARGAIN. Aku akan pilih tempat yang lama asal mereka bisa lebih menghargai aku dan kemampuan aku. Gak perlu digaji setinggi ditempat baru kok, asal bisa diterima sama akal manusia aja. Rise my paychech or I go, bukan ancaman, lebih kayak permohonan malah. Singkat cerita mereka approve permohonan aku, mereka terima standard gaji yang aku inginkan dengan syarat beban kerja aku ditambah (??).

Hari ini aku datangi perusahaan yang baru itu, aku berterima kasih, pamit baik-baik dan minta maaf karena gak bisa menandatangani kontrak. Untungnya mereka mau mengerti dan menghargai keputusan aku. This is the power of communication!! Here i am now, kembali ke meja kantor ini yang selama 6 bulan menemani. Aku berusaha mengikhlaskan apapun yang telah aku lepaskan. Kalau rezeki gak akan lari kemana kan? :)

Tapi dari ini semua aku dapat banyak pelajaran hidup. Aku bangga karena aku stay true sama prinsip aku untuk menghargai diri sendiri dan yakin sama kemampuanku. Dengan itu aku berhasil membuat orang lain value high diri aku seperti aku melihat diri sendiri. Selain itu aku punya shout out untuk karyawan-karyawan di mana pun saat ini. Kalau kalian merasa punya segala faktor untuk digaji layak, performance kalian baik, latar belakang pendidikan sesuai, load kerja besar, jangan takut-takut untuk speak up harapan kalian. Kita berhak dan layak, maka jangan takut. Cuma satu syaratnya: Bertanggung jawab dengan permintaan kita itu. Lakukan kewajiban dengan baik.

Gajiku tetap gak segede karyawan bank :), tapi hatiku nyaman dan semua pihak senang. Win win solution!! I can continue what I had planned and even have a better plan for the upcoming year.

:))

Something getting older!

2011-01-25T09:36:00.001+07:00

Feliz cumpleanos my blog.. Thank you for being here with me for a year.. :)

A Morning Thought

2010-12-24T08:41:00.008+07:00

This morning, my father bought a local newspaper which contained the announcement of Civil Servants recruitment held by my town. I haven't really count it but i reckon thousand or so people has become a new "public servants" at my province. Well, i don't know if i should congratulate or simply show an "i'm not impressed" reaction.

Everytime i see the name list, the first thing coming to my mind is "how much they pay for that position?", "Is it her mother or her uncle who has a connection?". Okay, call me cynical but i'm the one who has lost -almost all- of my trust for this country specifically for my government. But i also confused by people at this country (well, some of them but still a great number of 'em), why so proud giving a tons of money to be part of broken bureaucracy? What happened to "believe in my very own ability"? What happened to "working hard to gain succeed"? I'm concerned of how most people think this is the only way they can do for living.

I know several names at that list, and i think one or two of them really deserve the job because of their ability. But then again there are also people i know who got this job years ago and they were seem so sincere, a hard working people, honest, etc but ended have business with the court blah.. blah.. That's where my doubt coming from, the prospect of turning a good person into a sinner that my government has. This is like an evil machine without anyone knows how to turn this off. This is exactly why i don't want to be a civil employee, i really don't want to be a part of this. And i thanked god my parents raise me in a very fair circumstances, a father that giving example how to not bewitched by gold and fame, a mother who showed how to dedicate ourselves to a job we have. I'm a good girl and i'll never let anything change it. I'll accept the low payment which i get right now, and work hard to get acknowledgment later. because i believe in my self, i believe in justice, i believe in Allah SWT.

This, remind me why i love football in general. A footballer have to work hard and sacrificed everything when they were just a child. They can't fully enjoy their childhood like other kids did. Some of them had to live far from their families. They had to face a rejection, injuries, and low point to be a "somebody". And it is worth it. They later deserved of every penny they've earned and popularity they've got. Otherwise, when they're already at the top they still can't stop improving themselves in order to keep their position and being a professionals. And those value which infiltrate me the most, only if you work hard you'll get everything you deserve to. I would rather work hard than a shortcut. So, I'll keep improving my self, i'll keep learning, and i hope in the end i'll get recognition.

But to be fair, everyone has their own opinion and way of thinking. This is just my opinion and people can agree or disagree. I'm not saying there's no one left in our government who are really qualified (That's why i gave a try in a recruitment held by ministry of communication and information a while ago). I also believe that there's somebody out there who still has heart and principles, who appreciate capability and honesty. I'm not giving up and wishing someday my beloved country will run by good hearted people who also has skills.

I end this post with picture of two of many hardworking footballers whose life story is such a very good example for everyone. Two footballers from my favorite club. Two footballers who -rumours has it- are having internal conflicts which i think just a bullshit and rubbish that media and Real-haters made.

(In case you can't tell, this is el capitan of Spain and Portugal, Iker Casillas and Cristiano Ronaldo, from Real Madrid)

PS: Talking about country, i give my support for Indonesia National Team in AFF championship final!! buena suerte!

I LOVE YOU REAL MADRID

2010-11-30T04:59:00.004+07:00

So, this still Tuesday.. The sky is still blue, the roses are still red etc..

Ok i lied. The sky is dark for all Madridista. I'm devastated. The last time i cried for football was in the World Cup final (tears of joy of course). This game, this game.. was so %$#$#*%.. From the beginning everything went so wrong, a shaky start, an early goal (or goals?), a poor defense. But whatever, i'll knock my head to the wall to amnesia this game from my head anyway..

Now let's talk about Sergio's behavior. I don't approve. I can't approve. Sergio shouldn't slapped his NT Teammates (even tho i know they talk shit to him bla..bla..), but really Sergio? That was Puyi! That was Xavi!! I hope he calls them later so there won't be a misunderstanding.

I bet people won't get over this for a week (or month, or forever?). Whatever is going to happen, whatever people will say, whatever, whatever, whatever.. I just wanna say I LOVE YOU REAL MADRID. And i'm proud to be a Merengue. We'll get it together! We will take the top of table ASAP!! To end this, i'll put one of my fave pic from one of my fave tumblr Jose's Blackbook.

PS: I told before i wanna be a cule, but after 5 months trying i found that i just can't. I know they're good (and my 8 spaniards are there) but i'm too WHITE to be a blue red.. Thanks god.

A Morning Conversation

2010-11-06T10:56:00.003+07:00

So, i gotta make this quick because i'm posting from my office.

My Alter Ego (MAE): Oh, wait what? OFFICE? Whose office?
Me: Yes, MY NEW OFFICE!
MAE: Didn't you just said that you're not in a rush to get a job or something?
Me: Well, yes but my first interview has brought me to a new hectic office life. I can't refuse it even though i want to!
MAE: Now, what we have to do with our heavenly jobless life? 24hours internet? Sleeping? Football?
Me: You really have no idea how i hate this idea! but this is life! You want your Real Madrid jersey rite? A high quality night cream? Money saving for your dream? You want to continue your study? How can we make it if we still keeping our ass on that comfort zone? NEVER! So, you better go with me and stop whining like a baby!
MAE: Uhm.. relax girl! You scares me! Ok, whatever you want i can't refuse it! How can i? But i'll still warn you once in a while how good it is to be home 7 day per week! I'm off!

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MAE: (turning back) ....and i'm so excited with tonight's Derby, aren't you?
Me: Me too baby, off course i am! I'll see you tonight!

Enjoying Life

2010-10-28T09:27:00.003+07:00

You know i'm practically jobless now, but to tell you the truth i'm so happy being like this.. I don't feel like in a rush to get job fast just like i felt at my last year in college. I love being at home, watch TV, sleep all day, go online, cook a bit, watch football match in the midnight, clean the house (when i want to) and watch movies that i rent while most people working from 8 to 5 and sleeping already above 10pm. Hahahahaha.. (evil's laugh)

Life's keep running everyday, at one point i know i will join those people (the working people) and i believe i will also enjoy it. But right now, this rare chance got to be treat like how it supposed to be..

Cheers
:D

The wrestling of Bahasa and English

2010-09-25T12:53:00.001+07:00

A friend of mine tweeted me yesterday, she said she wanted to read my blog but since almost all my post written in English, she became dizzy. This, make me think, at the beginning of this blog i wrote my post in Bahasa then i decided to wrote it in English with some reasons:

1. My English isn't so good (as you can see), so i needed a place where i can practice my English. By writing in English, i can learn how to arrange words and re-read it sometimes to spot on some mistakes. It helps me a lot, because here in my country especially in my city, talking with others in English is still considered as an awkward gesture.

2. Writing my thoughts in English is easier. I don't know why but write it in Bahasa makes me shy, it feels too straightforward. Don't get me wrong, i didn't mean i am not proud of my own language but there's so many kind of "Bahasa tulis" here in indonesia. It confuses me, because i don't want to write in "bahasa alay", i don't like mixing Bahasa with English, and don't like a formal Bahasa type either.

3. By looking at my blog traffic, it looks like there are some people from other countries visited my blog. (Really thank you whoever you are.. :)) I want to make this blog more universal, so more people from all over the world would come here and read my thoughts.

Now after my friend mentioned it, i think i need to write more in Bahasa so my friends won't get confuse anymore when they visiting my page. Or i could just put a translator in my page.

Or what?

:/

PS: I still need time for posting the "graduation day" post. Uploading some photos with this modem really need a big effort and patience. *sigh

Big Smile Teaser

2010-09-23T21:37:00.007+07:00

...with papa and sister behind.

Updates coming soon..
with stories and more pictures..

Do wait!

hehehe..

A real champions never affraid of losing!

2010-09-08T05:59:00.009+07:00

Ok, i think i need to make a special post about tonight's game before any Media releases such a bombastic headlines. You know something like "Juara Dunia dipermalukan Argentina dengan skor telak" or "Pukulan keras bagi Spanyol sang Juara Dunia" bla..bla.. Yes, we lost against Argentina with 4-1 score! To tell the truth i kinda disappointed. But, in the other hand there are some factors which made it happen. And i chose to accept this as a lesson for us to face another stage in our footballing-life.

(thank you for a goal from Fernando Llorente)

Beside the external reasons such as we played at El Monumental Argentina where the crowd full with blue-white supporters. Or because we faced "a better Argentina National Team" where there are some great comebacks like Zanetti, Cambiasso, D'Alessandro completing Masch, Tevez, Higuain, Di Maria and of course the world's best player Messi. It is also obvious that VDB wanted to try another formation and make sure that the team won't depend too much to Xavi or Iker or Ramos..

(It reminds me about El-Clasicco)

(i love the red tie)

I believe it was a good decision for the team, i mean we can't do a trial strategy in a "serious" even like Eurocopa Qualifying match, right? And i agree with RCTI commentator Tommy Welly who said that it is a good psychological warning for the team so they could recharge they winning desire and keeping their feet on the ground. I know that 4 goal is too much for a big team like ours but the ball still round, so..

I don't know how exactly the boys feeling right now but i'm sure they know what to do next time. This team consist of people who has, not only great footballing skill but also own a great personality. They wouldn't blame anyone and won't mourn this longer than 10 seconds after the whistle blew. Well, above all it's so good to know that 3 of 4 Argentine goalscorer are play for Spanish club, no? :) It means Spain has a contribution of maturing the Argentine players even though they have to strive against Spain it self.

(Lucky Pipita didn't have to face Iker)

Rise and Shine La Roja! We're here to support you whatever it takes. Consider this not as a failure but a stepping stone to make another history!

Looove you with all my heart..

PS: Poor Pepe Reina, i hope he's fine! :(

Historia de Agosto

2010-09-06T16:11:00.002+07:00

Hello World!!

Aaahh it is so relief to be back here. It feels like years i didn't showed up with a new post, no? There are some important notes that i am going to share.

one. Finally, I've obtained my bachelor's degree in Communication Studies. Now, i got a title behind my name, Yesi Rizki Amelia, S.I.Kom (Yay!). It was at Aug 27th 2010, the day i had my comprehensive exam. I must say that i had through a really bad times struggling for the title (big sigh). It was so exhausting both physically and mentally, depressing, and sometimes annoying. Well, it's a long story but ended nicely. All i want to say is God is always been really kind to me. Alhamdulillah. :)

two. It sucks how the bureaucracy at my college make me even depressed when i thought i've reached my limit. Too many form to be filled, too many things to be paid. Yes, i'm officially bankrupt (and so are my parent)!!! But after all, I will have the graduation ceremony at Sept 22nd 2010.

three. I regret my attainment in Ramadhan month of this year. You know i would blame the "skripsi distraction", but it should not be an excuse right? So, i beg you Allah SWT, let me meet Ramadhan next year..

four. There is one thing that still can cheered me up when i was in those "bad times". Yeah football, not really hard to guess, huh? ;p. Big thanks for my fav football-related-blogger Unamadridista for both her La Roja blog and Madrid blog. No matter how busy i was, i always took time for reading her posts. Great pleasure.

five. I can't tell how happy i am for the fact that Spain NT won their first Euro Qualifying match! They've beaten Liechtenstein 4-0 with goals by Fernando Torres, David Villa, and David Silva. I am especially very happy and proud of Nando's two goals. El Nino is back!!! :D

six. Besides the good news of number five above, i'm so disappointed of my self. I still can't believe that i MISSED the match. Simply because i fell asleep. :( But tomorrow at 04.00 AM (Indonesia time) Spain will be facing Argentina for a friendly. Yes! Yes! Yes! I have a chance to redeem my disappointment. Somebody please just slap me right away if i (again) fall asleep.

seven. I want to get a job as fast as i can!! Because my internet connection is sucks and i want my old "modem" back! This new CDMA wireless won't bring me any good. I can't even enclose some photos at this post. Fail.

Catch ya latter.

Celebrate the day

2010-07-30T00:02:00.009+07:00

(background from here)

Damn, it has been 5 years! and still counting.. Yah, sebenarnya gak 5 tahun amat juga sih (considering what had happened in April 2008!). Tapi tetap aja lah yaa.. lumayan juga. hehe.. Ape sih yang lg diomongin? Itu loh, saya anniversary hari jadian dengan pacar saya.. hihihi.. Hari ini 30 Juli tepatnya 5 tahun yang lalu, i decided to accept him as my boyfriend. And here we are on July 30th 2010 still together.. *clap

Saya kurang suka bicara yang puitis-puitis, tapi khusus di hari ini saya pengen share harapan-harapan saya untuk hubungan ini. Tidak banyak, tapi esensial..

Me-side:
one. I hope i will never ever being such a bitch and throwing sharp words to him anymore.
two. I hope i will have more patience for facing our differences. (In thoughts, taste, habit, etc)
three. I hope i will always support him whatever he's going to do as long as it's good and he's happy.
four. I hope i can be somebody to whom he can always talk to about everything.
five. I hope i can reduce my ego when he wants me to repeat whatever i've said. (even if it feels like swallowing vinegar)
six. I hope i will always give my best smile everytime i meet him.

Us-side:
one. I hope we can always sit and talk like two grown up people everytime we hit upon a problem.
two. I hope we will never have a fight on phone anymore. (both call or text, text is the worst!)
three. I hope we will stop spending money in unnecessary things (like foods?) and start saving for Europe tour (kidding).
four. I hope we will still remind each other about take-a-pray-in-early-time thing.
five. I hope we will always love each other no matter what and stick with our plan. *wink

You-side:
No numbers. I just want you to do one thing for me. Please, let me be whatever i wanna be. If so, then i'm yours. Period.

I love you.
xoxo

Trouble Sleeping

2010-07-28T23:29:00.009+07:00

Based on my latest posts, maybe some of you would start thinking that my blog has turn out to be a football blog or something.. But no, at least not yet. Or never be. I don't know.

So, how is life? Here, i still got "souvenir" from the World Cup. Too bad it is not a good one. Yeah i got trouble sleeping and my entire daily schedule has changed drastically. !_!
- First week after WC --> couldn't sleep before 3 AM
- Week 2 after WC --> still the same with the first one
- Week 3 after WC until now --> always sleep at 1 AM

Actually i love being insomniac, i think it's the best way of meditation and to get to know better of my own self. The quietness, peacefulness, and everything that you could not get at day time is priceless. Or not.. because apparently i had to pay it with almost all of my productive time. I can barely open my eyes between 6AM-12PM after having those meditation-at-midnight! Horrible! And now, my target will be sleeping between 10-11PM everyday and waking up at 5AM. Deséame suerte!

Well, i dont know what to say anymore because there's no much things happen if you've spent all day long with your eyes closed. Nothing but some nightmare (or daymare?) Whatever. So, i'll give you two adorable photos to cure your disappointment of reading this odd post. She has a very gorgeous eyes, no?

My Brain gone Red

2010-07-16T00:21:00.008+07:00

You know, it''s just four days after Iker Casillas lifted up the World Cup as the end of South Africa's Event but i can't literally describe how i missed my boys :'(. I keep tracking their celebration news on TV, newspapers and internet but i still feel losing. I really want to see them playing. Huhu... T_T

Iker lifting up the World Cup

The Goal Scorer also lifting it up

Well, i think i better be more patient till that time comes up because i'm sure that NT won't play any game near time. I'm looking forward for a new season of La liga (as a new Barca supporter ;p) and Premier League (because of Cesc of course). I'm also excited for any international championship like Champions League and others. Ah, can't wait, can't wait!!

Another story, two days before, when i was googling news about NT, i found a very interesting and heartwarming blog about them. I'm so lucky to found this site because it's a place for die hard Spain NT fans, just like me. I still don't know who owns this blog but from what i've read i knew that it's a woman. She also a Spaniard who (maybe) live in Spain. One more thing, she's a Real Madrid supporter, that why (i think) she calls her self as UNAMADRIDISTA.

The blog is so SPAIN, i mean almost everything we must know about the Spanish Players were there. Unamadridista is so nice giving her time translating news from Spanish to English since i have no idea about Spanish at all. I also love her point of view and writing style. I can easily conclude that she is a true fan of the boys. One of my favourite line from her which is exactly the same with me is when She said that she loves the team so much because they're all love each other so much :'). Enough said, i'm already tear up.

I thanked her for every news, Q&As, secrets, videos, and pictures about Spain NT. It means a lot for me. You make me feel closer with the guys and love them even more and more :). But i just feel sorry that i didn't found this site earlier. It would have been fun reading those posts during the World Cup. At that time i just read anything from FIFA.com which is also great but in different way. The FIFA one is more formal i think.

I also found from the blog that after the Eurocopa 2008 there's a book that has been published about the team. The title is "Los Secretos de La Roja". I want so badly to have one, but since it's in Spanish and i'm sure that the book don't exist in Indonesia, i'm once again grateful that Unamadridista has translated some parts of the book into English and make it posible for me to read.

(Pict from here)

Reading from my local newspaper, Spain and Portugal are going to bid together for being 2018 World Cup host. If that really happen i will start saving Rupiahs immediately so i can fly to Spain that time. Anyone knows how much i have to prepare for it?

Oh yes, i haven't got chance to tell you the story about that Final night between Spain and Netherland. It was a craziest night ever for me. I couldn't stop trembling at my chair waiting for miracle that somebody might score a goal. I Prayed all the times wishing my team could win the game. I fully believed at them but everything could be happened. So, when Andres Iniesta scored that freakin' awesome goal I cried so loud and almost fainted. Thank's to God i was still concious so i could watched the celebration after the game. I can'n tell you how happy i was (and i still am). It make some random thought suddenly came to me: "If i can be as happy as today (July 12 2010) in my wedding day , i know i really in love with my husband." LOL! Silly but true.. But i don't know, can i be happier?? Let's wait and see..

Cheers.

PS: For Unamadridista (if you read this) i want to thanked you so much for what you've done for your reader. I hope you won't stop doing that. I'm addicted to your blog already :D.
Vamos Espana!!

What happened in Johannesburg

2010-07-12T04:28:00.009+07:00

My Team ESPANA, LA FURIA ROJA, THE RED FURY, SPAIN won the FIFA World Cup 2010 South Africa!!!! I think this is one of the best moment in my life. I couldn't help my self to cry. :') Oh, i love you Casillas, Puyol, Ramos, Capdevilla, Pique, Busquets, Xabi, Xavi, Iniesta, Villa, Pedro, Cesc, Torres, Navas, and all the squad.. You all make our dream come true.. :D

2010 FIFA WORLD CUP SOUTH AFRICA

CHAMPION

*bighug

See Football Through My Eyes

2010-07-08T18:36:00.015+07:00

I think it's time for me to write this. About a deep relationship between me and football.. Practically, right now almost 6 billion people in the world put their attention to an once in four years event. Yes, it's 2010 FIFA World Cup South Africa. 32 nations compete to fought over a prestigious title: A World Champion.

Until the 8th of July the group match, the round of 16, the quarter-finals, and semi-finals had done. Now, everyone is looking forward to the final match in Soccer City Stadium, Johannesburg on July, 12th 2010 (GMT +7). The match will confront two top football country in Europe, the Oranje Team Netherland, and La Furia Roja, European Champion 2008, Spain. Both, never won a single World Cup champion title before.

Like I've said in my previous post before, I'm a huge fan of Spain national team. And their attainment so far, succesfully put me in mixed emotional feelings. Happy, proud, excited, nervous, stunned.. ooh beyond words.. I have a long history and memory with Spain. In the very beginning of my anxiety to football I was a Germans supporter. Yeah it was in World cup 2002 Korea/Japan and the Germany beated Saudi Arabia with 11-0. What a score!! It was make them loveable right? ;p Well, from there, I decided to support Deutschland including their package; Klose, Ballack, Oliver Khan etc.

But somehow this Korea/Japan event make me really really fall in love with football. After the World Cup 2002 I demand more games, I wanted to see more, I wanted to learn more. So, I started watch the leagues in Europe. I watched Bundesliga, Premiere League, Serie A and La Liga. Not to long, I found my favourite team, my heart has choosen Real Madrid as my first and forever favourite football club in the world.

Some people said, girls only likes the charming view and some shirtless scene from football. Well, I won't say i'm not one of those girls, but I think my grade is one step higher than them. I admit that handsome guys with their delicious body running in the field for 90 minutes are very hard to resist. But for me the art of football, the goals, the tactics, the moves, the saves, the celebration of goals are things that attrack me the most. Football is beautiful.

So, back to Spain. After put all my heart to Real Madrid and of course their charming captain Raul Gonzalez, I began support Spain in every international matches. They played well but haven't got chance to won any big competition such as Euro 2004 and World Cup 2006. But it was all about time, they have a really competitive league and some Spanish club like Real Madrid, Barcelona, and Valencia have won so many international championship. They have come to the golden era of Spanish football. With a mixing of experienced and young players, they got the best players in every position. The goalkeeper; Iker Casillas, defender; Carles Puyol, Sergio Ramos, and Carlos Marchena, midfielder; Xavi, Iniesta, Fabregas, Xabi Alonso, and duet striker; Fernando Torres & David Villa. They finally won the Austria/Switzerland Euro 2008 by defeat Germany 1-0 at final. Raul maybe has come to his end of national team career, but Raul is just one of my reasons for supporting Spain. The team is perfect right now, they play art in the field. And if you haven't noticed, they're one of the most fair play team in the world.

Now in South Africa, the winning team of Euro 2008 has back. The great captain Iker Casillas who always did a wonderful saves. Carles Puyol the very tough defender. Sergio Ramos the super energetic wing back. The master of midfield, Andres Iniesta, Xavi Hernandez, Cesc Fabregas and Xabi Alonso. Apparently the team become better and better with the existance of Gerard Pique, Sergio Busquets and Joan Capdevilla. Oh, and don't forget about the super benches David Silva, Fernando Llorente, Juan Manuel Mata, Jesus Navas and Pedro (well, Pedro i regret your selfish action last night! Please don't do that again!). My team has a very wonderful ingredients and well cooked by coach Vicente delBosque.

Last night Spain has beated Germany (again) in semifinal World cup 2010 with 1-0 score (again). Carles puyol header has bring Spain to final match for the first time after the 12th time participation. I tell you a secret: I cried when Puyol tear the Germans goal post :D. Now, i put all my hope to this final match. I pray for you my team, I believe we can win the final game. But even though we're not destinied to hold the Cup yet, I still proud of you and will be your fan forever.

With all my heart.

:')

PS: I started to love Barcelona FC because half of Spanish player are there. Funny, because Real Madrid and Barcelona have always been a rival. But for me they're one. Hehe.. :p

Don't poke me, i got chicken pox!!!

2010-06-27T13:14:00.002+07:00

Ya benar, gw rasa gw kena cacar. Gw belum cek dokter karena 3 dokter yg gw datangi hari ini semuanya tutup. Tapi udah ada beberapa bentol berisi air menjijikan di sekitar leher, perut, lengan, dan punggung. -__-! Padahal gw udah berusaha banget biar daya tahan tubuh gw gak lemah supaya gk tertular virus Varicella-Zoster dari penderita cacar sebelumnya (baca:kakak dan adek gw). Ternyataaa.. kena juga.

Penyebabnya pasti gara-gara gw maksain banget begadang nonton pertandingan-pertandingan di WC2010. Puncaknya Spanyol Vs Chile kemarin malam.. Bangun tidur badan panas, sendi2 linu, dan baa malemnya bintik2 muncul. Well, i'm not gonna blame anyone. Ini penyakit yang gampang bgt menular dan hampir pasti diderita semua manusia. Dari artikel2 yg gw baca di internet katanya kita gk boleh stress, karena akan memperparah timbulnya cacar. Ya sudahlah, welcome chickpox jangan lama2 yaa di tubuhku.. :D

xoxo

Gratitude is the best attitude

2010-06-12T09:34:00.008+07:00

Hi! it's been a while..

So, what's up? I hope you all doing great.

You know what? I'm kinda happy this week. No, i haven't graduated yet! Still working on it, but with more spirit!! From where did the spirit come? Well, i don't know, maybe it's because i had my haircut so i can stop dealing with my hairfall :D. Or it's because World Cup 2010 has been started! (oh, excited!). And maybe because i've done the validity and reliability test (the pretest for the questionaire). Yes, three of them i guess.. hehe.. What is clear is that i made a progression about my minithesis. It's such a relief. Thank you God. :) Mmm Okay, stop talking about this boring college stuff. I've talked about this so much with my friends in college and at Facebook or Twitter. So, i've got enough.

Talking about Twitter, i think i started to be addicted to this social networking site. Ha! I can't live without tweeting, replying, retweeting, reading the Timeline and stuff. Well, i'm not saying it's good or bad. There's always two side in everything. Yes or no, agree or disagree, like or dislike, Tom or Jerry, team Jacob or team Edward (OMG,i can't believe i type this!!), and tweeting or not tweeting. See? All i know is right now i'm enjoying this and i'm having fun.

Duileee gaya bgt deh mas-mas sekalian! ;)
(pict from here)

But the problem is some people or, i must say, most people (including me) tend to do a bad human habit in Twitter. It's called COMPLAINING. I know, i know, people complains everywhere, everytime, not only at Twitter or other social networking sites. I don't wanna preaching here by saying that it's a bad habit and we should stop whatsoever. What i'll tell you is it's so hard to avoid this. So, i'm trying to make a balance of my life. I made a new moval. I started tweet about "3 good things of the day" everyday before i go to sleep. What is it about? It can be anything that you feel really made your day. Such as meet an old friend, finished reading a good book, found a very constructive quotation, bought something that you like, or eat melon (yeah i tweet this! it felt good for me). By this, i hope i never forgot that God always give me something different everyday which should be appreciated with thankfulness. By this, i hope i always remember that grant from above is not always shaped as a big number of money or winning a trip from a lottery. It can also showed as a trifle unnecessary things that come to my life. It's not a big thing actually, but at least i feel good about this. I will continue doing 3GToTD (3 good things of the day) until there's no more left to be thanked or in another word: never. Heehehe..

"Who does not thank for little will not thank for much." ~Estonian Proverb

Well, enough for today. Be good people.
xoxo

PS: I'm all for Spain in WC2010. Go Spain! Go Spain! Go! Go! Go!

It's a Graphity that painted in a wall near to my house. I like it.

and..

My Valedictory

2010-05-20T17:39:00.006+07:00

Hi people..

I'm not in the mood of writing.
My current mood is: sad. :'(

I'm not ready to tell you why,
but this Duffy song more or less can explain what i fell rite now..

I'm Scared
by Duffy

The blank pages of my diary
That I haven't touched since you left me
The closed blinds in my home
See no light or day
Dust gathers on my stereo
Cause I can't bare to hear the radio
The piano sits in a shaded space
With a picture of your face

I'm scared to face another day
Coz' the fear in me just won't go away
In an instance
You were gone
And now I'm scared.

Coffee stains on your favourite book
Remind me of you so I can't take a look
The magazines you left on the floor
You won't need them anymore
A towel left hanging on the wall
No sign of wet footsteps in the hall
There's no smell of your sweet cologne
I'm lying here alone

I'm scared to face another day
Coz' the fear in me just won't go away
In an instance
You were gone
And now I'm scared.

I'm scared to face another day
Coz' the fear in me just won't go away
In an instance
You were gone
And now I'm scared.

In an instance you were gone
I'm scared.....

Hope i can say goodbye to sadness ASAP..
bye.

Breaking News: It is a BREAKUP!

2010-05-14T17:05:00.004+07:00

Gak tau ya, kalau kalian baca post gw kali ini pasti bakal mikir: 'duh gk penting bgt si'( emang post2 sebelumnya ada yang penting gt? ;p). Tapi ini penting, buat gw setidaknya. Well, gw baru denger kalau Raditya Dika dan Sherina putus. Huhuhu hatiku pecah berkeping2 (lebay deh lo!). Sebenarnya sih gw udah nebak dari pas gw baca twit si radit yang isinya:

"The more breakups u have, the more u question the universe: is there such thing as "love"
4:38 AM May 11th via UberTwitter"

Setelah gw baca twit itu gw langsung buka profile page dia dong dan ternyata background twitternya udah gak yg gendong-gendongan itu lagi, diganti dengan radit sendirian masih dengan kostum yg sama. Seolah-olah melambangkan mereka lagi main berdua terus Sherinanya pergi meninggalkan Radit sendirian dengan tampang bingungnya. Uh uh uh.. Gw coba buka twitter Sherina dan background dia pun sudah berubah. Dari situ gw nyimpulin sendiri kalau mereka udah putus. Gw googling dan belum ada berita tentang mereka putus. Berita-berita terakhirnya masih tentang website Radit di-hack. Saat itu gw masih berharap gw cuma salah tebak. Tapi setelah itu muncul twit lain dari Sherina terus berita2 di infotainment. Dan akhirnya post di website Radit. :'(

Mereka yang putus kok gw yg sedih? Gk tau ya, tapi gw emang suka sama Radit dan gw juga suka sama Sherina. And i love to see them together. Menurut gw mereka pasangan yang gak biasa dan mereka berdua punya kepribadian yang gak biasa juga. Two great personalities meet each other would makes a great relationship, isn't it? Tapi ternyata tidak. Gw belajar banyak dari ini.

Well, Raditya Dika if you read this, i just want you to know that someday you'll find "the one". And you too Sherina... :)

PS: Tidak ada maksud apapun dalam pembuatan post ini selain menunjukkan kesedihan saya atas berpisahnya dua orang favorit saya. hehe..

Govern-nuts

2010-05-13T11:50:00.007+07:00

Everytime i watch news on tv i always think about this: 'will they ever stop?'

Will the media stop broadcast those news? or will the news maker stop making the news? I don't know. All i know is as long as people still breathing they won't stop doing whatever they doing right now. Violence, terrorism, corruption, war, scandal, pretence, anarchy....... ooh i'm tired.. we're tired...

Quote of the day:

Giving money and power to government is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys. ~P.J. O'Rourke

versus

We are imperfect. We cannot expect perfect government. ~William Howard Taft

Well, you decide!
Happy thursday!
xoxo

Lucky 55

2010-05-12T08:24:00.005+07:00

Yesterday (11-05-2010) was my daddy's 55th birthday. Yeah, he was born in 1955 and now he's 55 years old. What a number right? My sister had bought a cake the day before. So, at 12.30 am my sister waken me up. We lighten up the 5 and 5 candles then we sang "Selamat Ulang Tahun" song beside his bed. At first he didn't notice what really happened but after he got all of his consciousness, he started to look surprised. Well, the night ended with chocolate clinging at everyone's teeth.. hehehe..

So, i just wanna say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA.

I HOPE AT YOUR 55th YEAR IN THIS WORLD YOU WILL BE ABLE TO REACH YOUR BIGGEST DREAM.

ACCOMPLISH THE 5th ISLAM PILLAR.

HAJ PILGRIMAGE TO BAITULLAH

INSYAALLAH

I love you more than you know.

Zoom Zone

2010-04-27T08:18:00.006+07:00

Holla...

Here is some photos of me wearing the Peacock Necklace.
I like it so much though it's a bit heavy. Hihihi..

Have a great day!

All is in your head

2010-04-25T19:17:00.003+07:00

Whether you think you can or think you can't - you are right. ~Henry Ford

WINNER

2010-04-21T07:09:00.006+07:00

Remember this Peacock Necklace??

Yeah the one from Evitanuh giveaway. You know what? I won.

Hahahahahahhaahahahaa...
I can't tell you how happy i am. I know it is just a necklace, not a car or a billion rupiahs money. But for me it is not just a necklace. I've never won anything from a competition before. Not from a magazine quizzes nor any kind of lottery. Pathetic i know. Blame my unfortunate hand. Haha..

Moreover there's so many people who wanted this necklace too and they do have a very good webpage. So, when the first time i read my blog's name on the list of the winner.. ohh.. I kinda shocked and you won't believe this: i clapped my hand. Yeah i clapped. hahaha

Well however thank you again and again Evita. This thing, which is even haven't arrived at my house, really meant for me. :)

PS: still don't believe that i am the winner? Check here.. hahahhaahahha...

A grasshopper at a damaged soil

2010-04-20T13:05:00.007+07:00

I found this Photoshop-ing video at youtube. I like it, at least it can reduce my envy-meter at Leighton.. hehe
Please click here to watch..

I have a new wish. A wondershoe baby. Hope i could afford it next month. *Finger crossed.

Well, have a good day and Selamat Hari Kartini..

Thank you Ibu Kartini

PS: Enjoy your Hari Kartini discount at Ancol.. Click here. xoxo

I Want This!

2010-04-10T17:00:00.009+07:00

Hey, i have a good news! One of my favorite blogger, evitanuh, is MAKING A GIVEAWAY !! Yeah, one more time A GIVEAWAY! And i'm already fall in love with the Leaf Bracelet, Mango delirium EDT, and also the Peacock necklace.

Pretty Leaf Bangle

Mango EDT

Peacock Necklace

Actually i also like her purple shoes but it wasn't come in my size, so i'm about to choose one of the three above. And guess what? i'm really confuse. I mean the stuffs are uber cute! How can i choose??

Before i choose, i will tell you about this little bloggirl. I'm a newcomer in the blogworld and she is one of people who inspiring me to do blogging. She is an eleven years old girl with a very good taste in fashion. But not just that, i also adore her thought. By reading her blog i can see that she is a good girl who really loves her family. I haven't even meet her but i can feel it :). Oh yeah, and i must say your English is so good Evita. I envy you for this. hehe.. :p. So, thank you Evita for being such an adorable and inspiring blogger for me. And i will be happier if you give me the PEACOCK NECKLACE. :) :) :) :)

Yeah people, that's it. I've choose the necklace. If you want to have one of her gift please visit her post about this. And make sure you follow the rules. Happy choosing!! :)

Welcoming Another Monday.

2010-04-05T12:40:00.005+07:00

Instead of complaining that the rosebush is full of thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses. ~Proverb

See anything bad from the opposites, and you're going to love your life.
Happy Monday.

It's Easy to be A Genius

2010-04-04T08:28:00.016+07:00

Hello people out there! How's your weekend? I hope nothing but splendid time you've got :). Well, i think i'm gonna tell you mine. At friday night my boyfriend picked me up and brought me to Rosemary steak. Ooh, so happy. Yeah, i was lying on my bed and thought nothing i could do but sleep. But then he called and asked me if i want to go out with him. And i said yes, of course!! It was pretty romantic, but something bothered me that night. Before i tell you what, i want to ask you. Have you ever visit a steak restaurant? Do you know how to make steak? If you do, i know you're understand that making steak will take a quite long time. And what was bothering me? It's about a man who didn't have enough patient to wait until his steak order came. Well, he was leave. And it might not be a minute after he left, the meat is ready to dine off. I mean don't you see? It was cruel. That man should learn about manner and how to treat people well.

I'm not saying this kind of situation never came to me before. Sometimes i really disappointed about service at some restaurant or cafe. But i should really considering some factors. Maybe the place is really crowded, too much visitors less waiters. Or maybe, just like i said, it take a long time to cook the food-stuff. I hope whoever you are man-at-Rosemary you would notice this: Patience is the ability to count down before you blast off. So, next time you feel that you're going to mad and throwing abusive words to innocent people. Take a deep breathe and count to ten. And you'll be a genius!
Because Genius is nothing but a great aptitude for patience. ~George-Louis de Buffon

Let's talk about another thing. I got diarhea last night and i know it hasn't finished. My belly still feels like turbulent or so. And i don't know what causes this. My guess?? my last lunch responsible for this. Well, enjoy your sunday people.. :)

Ps: this is the photo of me and Ibas with some touch from picnik. Enjoy..

With old dirty mirror..

some roomance

WOW! I'm in love!

2010-04-01T12:03:00.010+07:00

Yes, i am in love with my legs. Muahahaa..

Yesterday i woke up in the morning. I opened my cupboard door which has a giant mirror at its side. And i said: "DAMN! that is beautiful". I meant my legs look so skinny and sexy. hahaahaha.. I don't mean to look so proud of my self, but i'm a kind of big-bones-girl plus sort of klemer-klemer-girl whose body always look like a big old tree. So, i was kinda surprise when i saw my self in the mirror that morning (especially at the feet).

Actually, the decreasing size of my feet didn't happen like a magic. It is happened because of my hard work. I am exercising 3-4 times a week. I'm doing aerobic and belly dance. So i can say that i'm deserves those sexy-skinny-legs. hehehe..Ehm, but i must tell you people not to expect a super model legs. My legs still big (my bones can't shrink like a cloth). I'm really happy just because it is CHANGE into a better shape. So far it's enough, at least for me. :)

By the way me and my forever-cute-little-nephew did a photo session this morning at my room. We had fun! I'll post the photo latter.
Bye for now, and happy April Foolish Day! Watch out! :D

Eh, one more thing. I just wanna say i'm really excited for welcoming April because i have some fashion projects this month. big smile!!!

suddenly come to my mind

2010-03-14T18:03:00.019+07:00

Lately i'm really obsessed about:

1. Farmville

My guilty pleasure.. yeay!!

2. Belly Dance

This is my belly dance video, i practice three times a week.. hehehe

3. Style (korean drama)

Sadly, yesterday i watched the last episode *sobs. No more entertaining TV Drama. (But, it's alright, maybe god wants me to put all of my concentration to my 4-6 chapter)

Really adore her, the great, the kewl, the tough, the beautiful Ki Ja Park (Kim Hye Soo)!!

4. Healthy food (non cholesterol, fat or oil)

Lots of mineral water everyday.

My best friend Ms Bananananana... :)

Vegetables, hmm we're not quite a good friend. But i still trying hard to understand them.
Wish me luck!

And..... oatmeal, my favourite breakfast ever

No more nasi goreng Solaria, no more nasi uduk bibik, no more ayam McD, no more instant noodles, no more gorengan, no more nasi padang (but still can't resist sate padang ;D)

5. Dreaming about living in UK!

I'll be there someday!

6. Shoes.. shoes.. shoes..

gonna buy this soon.. :)

Christian Louboutin, wondering when i can get a pair of 'em, wanna surprise me anyone?
#ngarepabis

7. M. Nibras Alfarisi

My Susnshine, My Laugh, My Beloved Nephew.

I love you so much...

cupsss...kisss...

Books oh books..

2010-02-25T14:40:00.015+07:00

Ok, actually i didn't mean to be angry.. I'm sorry for the previous post.
Huuu zaaahh....
(I'll find the way.. i'll find the way..)

So, let's talk about another FUN thing. Have i told you people how i love Princess Diaries series?
I've read the first book about, i don't know, THOUSAND times??!! ;p I really enjoy read about Princess Mia. She is really human. If you know what i mean.

Meg Cabot bener2 membuat novel yang "ringan" dan selalu bisa membuat saya tersenyum walaupun udah baca berkali-kali. Saya mulai baca Princess Diaries yang pertama dari SMP kelas 3 gitu deh kayaknya. Kakak saya yang beli dan saya ikut-ikutan baca. Terus begitu masuk SMA saya pinjem sama temen saya si Sacenk hehe.. Dia punya lengkap novel2nya.Totalnya ada 10 jilid tapi saya belum baca semuanya. Kayaknya saya baru baca sekitar 6 atau 7 gitu deh. Kenapa? Simple, karena saya keburu lulus dan Sacenk keburu kabur ke Bandung. Sehingganya tidak ada lagi tempat untuk meminjam. Hehehe..

Saya pengen sih beli aja tapi prioritasnya terkalahkan sama novel lain yang juga sangat-sangat saya gemari : THE MIGHTY HARRY POTTER SERIES!!!! ;D Dan saat ini saya masih berusaha mengumpulkan sen demi sen duit jajan saya untuk punya complete hard cover editionnya.. So far saya baru punya 2, Sorcerer's Stone dan Deathly Hallows. Tapi saya benar2 bertekad untuk punya semuanya!! Hihihi.. (Huuuoohhh... Talk about this make me think about money, talk about money make me think about earn my own money, talk about earn money make me think about job, talk about job make me think about my graduation day and talk about graduation day make me think about MY F***ING SKRIPSI!!!)
I also like adult novel. I have some of them. Tapi saya bukan pengikut setia penulis tertentu. Saya lebih ke "membaca apa yang ada" haha.. Jadi novel-novel dewasa yang pernah saya baca macem2. Ada yang karangan James Patterson, Sidney Sheldon, Nicholas Sparks etc. Tapi saya bener2 masih miskin kalau bicara tentang adult novel. Setiap pengarang yang saya sebut tadi saya baru punya 1-2 judul novelnya. Saya juga pengen sih koleksi adult novel.. (Arrrggghhhh banyak amat pengennya!)

Eh ada lagi nih chiclit yang saya suka! Shopie Kinsella, Confessions of Shopaholic series. It's also fun to read. Dan ada kesamaan diantara 3 book series yang saya suka ini. Tiga-tiganya sudah difilmkan! Dan tiga-tiganya cukup sukses. Eh sukses banget malah kalau Harry Potter-nya. Tapi terus terang saya kurang sreg sama Confession of Shoppaholicnya (dalam hal ini Rotten Tomatoes sepakat sama saya, It's 23% rotten! check it out at:http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/confessions_of_a_shopaholic/), tapi alasan saya sih karena Isla Fisher yang jadi Rebecca Bloomwood agak tidak sesuai sama ekspektasi saya. Kurang greget gimana gitu. Haha klise ya? Gak tau deh, gak bakat ngomentarin film kayaknya. If it's about film you can read my sisters blog. She's good in reviewing movies (hehe sekalian promosi). Meet her at http://coffeeandmovie.blogspot.com/.

Oh, i love to read.

Anyone who says they have only one life to live must not know how to read a book.
- Author Unknown

end.

Stay away from me, or you'll get kicked!!

2010-02-25T14:17:00.003+07:00

Seriously! This skripsi stuff really stressed us.. Me, riska, and wiwi are getting down and down and down each day.. Can you hear us MISTER?? We need to do seminar A.S.A.P!! We need to know how far we've go, so we can fix all the things which in your hand is UNTOUCHABLE!!

Can you people feel how boring it is? Read it again.. again.. again.. all over again without knowing our fault! We need the seminar to let others see what you didn't see, to observe what you didn't found MISTER!!

Oh, god sometimes i think about runaway. But how? Where? Everytime i think about it i just try to convinced my self to believe that everything is gonna be ALRIGHT!! But nothing's alright! NOTHING IS ALRIGHT!

I Love Fashion!

2010-02-21T16:17:00.010+07:00

Saya termasuk orang yang suka memperhatikan gaya berpakaian orang-orang. Di kampus, di angkot, di mall, di tivi, di majalah dan dimana-mana saya pasti selalu memperhatikan bagaimana orang-orang berpenampilan. Saya suka terheran-heran gimana seseorang bisa punya ide-ide ajaib dalam pakai baju. Atau saya juga suka bingung kalau ada orang yang begitu tidak peduli dengan pakaian apa yang pas di tubuhnya.

Baru-baru ini saya baca blog nya Evita Nuh di http://jellyjellybeans.blogspot.com/. She's an Eleven years old girl with a big sense of fashion! Gila ya gimana anak 11 tahun udah ngerti banget sama yang namanya fashion. Dan dia punya personal style yang keren banget. Saya selalu pengen jadi seseorang yang do something buat dunia fashion. Yang bisa menginspirasi orang banyak dengan cara berpakaian saya. Atau mungkin jadi fashion stylist di Teen-Vogue. Hehehe itu salah satu impian terpendam saya. Ya even though jalan menuju kesana belum ada tanda2nya. Saya berusaha melampiaskannya lewat Looklet aja dulu deh. So, check out some of my look from looklet.

cupkiss..

*echy

5th day in the world aged 21

2010-01-30T20:52:00.000+07:00

Hai,, i'm officially 21 rite now!

21 is a good number, hope it will bring a good luck too.. hehe

So, sedikit cerita tentang hari ulang tahun saya. Tidak ada perayaan besar2an, cuma ada surprise kecil dari mogu. He brought me a cake, woke me up at 12.oo am by his phone. Biasa aja ya? Buat saya enggak, karena hampir 5 tahun pacaran belum pernah mogu ngucapin langsung face2 face jam 12 tet. Biasanya lewat telpon saja,, (sama sih saya juga belum pernah..hehe)

Here is sedikit video tiup lilin saya,, jadi teringat ulang tahun yang ke-17. 3 same things. Ruang tamu, a cake and candle, captured by venny. haha..

Another Sunday in January

2010-01-25T01:45:00.000+07:00

Two days before my birthday

Holla,

Hari minggu ini cukup menyenangkan, mengawali pagi dengan tidur lagi setelah solat subuh. Hehe ;) Minggu kan waktunya bermalas-malasan. Terus dilanjutkan dengan aerobik di rumah. Segaaaaarrr..

O iya talking about aerobik kebetulan saya dan mogu (baca:pacar saya) lagi cukup serius menjalankan program diet dan pengurusan badan (esp. him off course ;p). Kalau saya sih dari dulu emang udah diet nasi, walaupun makan yang lain tetep banyaaakk... Hahaha..

Nah kembali tentang dietnya mogu, dia sekarang mulai makan teratur dengan porsi yang pas, mengurangi makanan berminyak dan lebih banyak makan sayuran, terus (setelah saya pengaruhi) ikut2an sarapan pakai oat, dan ditambah (kembali) rajin berolahraga.

Nah kalau soal olah raga saya juga cukup excited. Tapi kita berdua pakai cara olah raga yang berbeda. Kalau dia lebih sering nge-gym saya lebih suka dance (ini olah raga juga kan? hehe). Kebetulan mogu baru aja beli vcd fat burning di gramedia. Jadilah kami berdua lagi coba-coba aerobik juga. Kali pertama aerobik, saya bahkan gak tahan sampe sepertiganya! Huhu.. Gerakan-gerakannya emang full lompat2 banget. Saya jadi kaget juga, secara selama ini kalau ngedance saya kuat2 aja tuh. Tapi ini yang bikin saya penasaran, di hari yang sama saya coba putar lagi vcdnya, lumayan lah bisa sampai abis walaupun ditengah2 ada berenti2nya dikit. Hehehe.. Lalu apa yang terjadi keesokan paginya? Seluruh badan pegel gak bisa digerakin! waduh. ;)

Nah tadi pagi yang ketiga kali saya aerobik dan saya udah mulai bisa menikmati. Ternyata fun juga ya. Tips dari saya: jangan terlalu heboh di awal. Saking bersemangatnya pas awal, di tengah dijamin rontok. Lebih baik santai aja, sesuaikan dengan kemampuan tubuh kita. Memang sih si instruktur yang di video itu dari awal sampai akhir keliatan semangat banget, but remember dia sudah terbiasa! Namanya juga instruktur. Gak mungkin kan amatir yang direkam, gak lucu dong kalau ditengah-tengah instrukturnya menges-menges kehabisan napas.

Setelah yang ketiga ini emang kerasa bedanya, badan jadi lebih segar dan pikiran lebih positif. Tapi saya masih bingung, sebaiknya dilakukan seminggu berapa kali ya? Kalau selama ini sih saya aerobik kalau mood aja. Berhubung saya memang lagi serius pengen merontokkan lemak, mungkin saya akan lebih rutin beraerobik ria. Gak niat berotot banget juga sih yah some cute muscles at belly and arm would be nice lah. hehe.

By the way saya menulis post kedua saya ini in the middle of doing my minithesis. Hari senin alias BESOK saya mau bertemu dosen lagi untuk bimbingan. Doakan saja ya supaya bisa secepatnya seminar.
Amin.Amin.Amin.

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2010-01-18T11:46:00.000+07:00

Hello, kenalkan orang baru di dunia per-blog-an. Nama saya Yesi but you can also call me Echy. Sebenarnya saya lumayan suka menulis, terutama tentang pikiran2 saya, idealisme saya, pengalaman sehari2, mimpi2, dan hal-hal yang saya sukai. Tapi selama ini saya hanya menuangkannya dalam buku2 bergaris yang biasa disebut buku tulis itu. Kadang buku2nya berwarna-warni, ada tokoh2 kartunnya, and sometimes ada gemboknya. hehe.. Iya saya suka menulis di buku harian a.k.a diary.

Dari kecil banget waktu saya sudah mulai bisa menulis, saya sudah mulai punya buku harian. Buku harian pertama saya gambarnya Sonic the Hedgehog ;D. Sampai sekarang buku itu masih saya simpen loh. Bergabung sama buku harian buku harian berikutnya. Isinya masih gak karuan, kebanyakan biodata orang2 di sekitar saya. Tapi ada juga cerita sehari-hari yang inti ceritanya cuma 1 kalimat! hehe.. Disana juga ada tempat yang saya sebut 'corat-coret'. Yaitu tempat saya menggambar orang, pemandangan, boneka dll. Terus ada juga list nama tokoh2 favorit saya. Misalnya ksatria baja hitam, billy (a guy in an Indian movie.. ;) ), rahul, jali,monkey king, rangers kuning dan nama2 aneh lain yang saya juga sudah lupa dari film apa. Haahaa..

Semakin bertambah usia, buku harian saya pun bertambah mutunya. Walaupun cerita2nya masih kurang penting (cowok,cowok, dan cowok) setidaknya tulisannya sudah mulai runtut dan jelas. Sudah mulai dikasih tanggal dan ditutup dengan tanda tangan. Tsah...

Ya itu dia riwayat tulis-menulis saya. Karena tuntutan teknologi dan perkembangan zaman, so i decided to continue my writing hobby at this blog.. chopchopchop.. I'm ecxited!

See ya at the next post!
Happy reaading :)